Tired from an afternoon of playing, the boys fell asleep quickly, leaving me with nothing to do. I jogged back downstairs, returned the books I’d finished, and borrowed another one from Nana. Back in our apartment, I pulled the office chair onto the dark porch then settled down to read. Reading wasn’t easy. I had to angle the book to catch the light from the kitchen. Still, I relaxed and listened to the night sounds.
Several chapters in, I heard the distant rumble of a familiar engine. I smiled to myself and stayed sitting in the dim circle of light, waiting. It didn’t take long for Emmitt to pull into the driveway. I could taste the dust in the air; we needed rain again. He slowly pulled into the garage and cut the engine.
His eyes glinted when he stepped from the garage and looked up at me. I gave a small wave, knowing he would see me. A few minutes later, I heard his footsteps in the kitchen behind me.
“Nice chair,” he said with a hint of laughter.
I glanced back at him. “It’s my new office.”
“Then you might need this.” He lifted a dark object he’d been holding.
Spinning the chair around, I reached for it. The small sleek tablet caught the light, and I glanced up at Emmitt with a frown. He’d left to buy me a tablet?
“The guy at the store said you should be able to surf the internet, even out here.”
I accepted the outrageous gift quietly. The sensibility of having it for tomorrow outweighed the need to protest at the expense.
“Thank you, Emmitt. I’ll try to pay you back.” But I doubted the stack of bills left in the envelope was enough to pay for it. When pulling a bill out here and there to give to Jim or Nana so they could buy us groceries, I never stopped to count what remained. The thinning pile told me enough.
“Don’t worry about it. It’s a gift.”
He stepped onto the porch and moved to lean against the wall. In silence, we watched the stars twinkling over the trees.
“Pretty crazy day,” he commented after a few minutes.
“Makes sitting in my office at night just that much better.” I didn’t really want to talk about the day. If I did, it would really hit home how messed up my life was. I preferred to bumble along in denial for as long as I could.
He pushed away from the wall. “If you need to talk about anything, I’ll be here.” Then, he left quietly.
I stared off at the stars until a distant howl reminded me I had work to do.
****
When the boys stumbled into the kitchen and saw me blurry-eyed, leaning over a piece of paper covered with scribbled notes, they froze. The tablet had taken some getting used to. Despite the learning curve, I felt I had enough research on the paper to warrant a plausible explanation of my impending prediction.
Pushing away from the island, I stood with a wilted smile and asked what they wanted for breakfast. A tap at the door delayed their response.
Emmitt swept open the door without waiting for an answer. Jim stepped in just enough for my brothers to see him.
“Come on, boys,” Jim waved them to the door. “Eggs, bacon, potato pancakes and orange juice are waiting.” Still in their pajamas, the boys ran out the door with Jim close on their heels. The three of them created a thumping racket on the steps.
Emmitt stood by the door, studying me. “You didn’t sleep.” Disapproval laced his words. His eyes drifted to the tablet and then the piece of paper.
I blinked at him stupidly, my brain replaced with fuzz. What had he expected when he handed me a cool new toy two hours before midnight? Of course, I stayed up to play with it. My eyes followed his to the paper. And I did some darn good work, too.
His movement interrupted my drifting thoughts. Two strides brought him across the room. A twist and lift had me up in his arms before I could squeal. He marched me to the bedroom, set me gently on the bed, and pulled a sheet up to cover me.
I didn’t fight it much. Having the bed to myself felt lovely. I forced a weak protest for appearance’s sake. “But I have stock information for Nana’s friend.”
“It can wait until you’ve slept a bit.” He hung a blanket over the blinds to keep out all light.
“But…”
“Sleep, Michelle. I’ll be listening.” He closed the door.
My lips twitched in the dark. Plan perfectly executed.
****
The ticker tape woke me. I didn’t know how much time had passed, but I threw back the sheet and got out of bed. The still, warm air in the room left me feeling hot and sticky. Grumbling about stocks and lack of rain, I grabbed a change of clothes and stumbled to the bathroom.
As I showered on autopilot, I focused on the information playing in my mind and struggled to recall the closing rate from my research. Nothing came to mind. A seed of doubt sprouted. I rinsed, shut off the shower, and pulled on clothes while still partially wet. Why couldn’t I remember?
Hair dripping onto my shirt, I yanked open the bathroom door and flew to the island. My eyes devoured the notes. I pulled the paper closer, my brain denying what my eyes saw.
“No, no, no, no, no!” I whispered fiercely. I’d stayed up all night. And for what? Some unknown entity to pop into my head. What did I need to do to catch a freak’n break?
I crumpled up the paper and threw the ball out the open French doors, watching it sail over the railing. Grabbing a new sheet, I set to work again, my fingers dancing over the tablet’s smooth glass as I tried to figure out how to prove this new premonition viable. The scratch of my pencil against the paper kept the ticker in my head company.
Deep in thought, reading an article about the business in question, I noticed the sudden silence in my head. The ticker had just stopped. Turned off. I looked at the paper next to me where I’d started my notes about the business. In the top corner, I’d written out the premonition like a recommendation. I knew writing it down wouldn’t turn it off. It never had before. But I had no other explanation. Setting down the pencil, I moved to pick up the paper.
“What are you doing?”
Emmitt’s voice ripped a startled yell from me. Swiveling on the stool, I held a hand to my heart and gave him a wide-eyed look.
“Obviously, four hours of sleep isn’t enough.” He stood just behind me, reading the paper over my shoulder. “Why are you doing this?” he asked nodding to the paper. “And why did this one fly?” He held up the wrinkled sheet I’d tossed out the window.
“I know investments. Stocks. Richard invested. It’s the only way I can pay you back.” He arched a brow at the crumpled paper, obviously wondering about it. “Another thought woke me. That one wasn’t right,” I said, motioning to the wadded paper he held.
“Back to bed.” He tilted his head indicating I should get moving.
“I’m not five. I don’t need to be told to go to bed.”
“Of course you’re not five. A five-year-old would listen.”
His words hurt a little. The scowl fell from my face, and I eyed him, wondering about his attitude. He didn’t appear angry.
He saw something in my expression or scented something related to my emotions because he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around me, setting his chin on the top of my head. He didn’t seem to mind my wet hair. My cheek rested against his chest.
“I’m worried,” he admitted. “Last night you seemed fine with everything that happened yesterday, but then you didn’t sleep.” He paused for so long I thought he’d finished talking, but then he asked softly, “Are you planning on leaving?”
Leaving? Despite everything I’d learned, I still felt safest here. “No, Emmitt. I’m not leaving.” He hugged me close, causing my stomach and heart to go crazy. I forced myself to keep still.
He cleared his throat and stepped back.
“Since you don’t want more sleep, do you want to come outside? Jim and I were talking about going into town for a few things.”
“Sure. Hold on,” I hopped off the stool and went to the room to get some money. Two more twenties from the diminishing pile. We needed milk and fresh produce.
He accepted the money with reluctance when I told him what I wanted him to pick up. Before he left, he promised he and Jim would be back soon. I went outside to play with Liam and Aden. At least, I didn’t have to worry about the premonition anymore.
****
They returned well after lunch, pulling a trailer loaded with furniture. Jim waved to the boys from the passenger window while Emmitt pulled up next to the garage to back the trailer closer to the house. Nana stepped onto the porch and helped direct Emmitt.
Liam and Aden climbed the tower attached to the swing set and watched. I shaded my eyes and squinted at everything stacked on the trailer and in the bed of the truck. There was so much. A sense of anticipation filled me when I thought of living in the new apartment. It would be our real home. The permanence of that thought didn’t scare me as it once had.
Emmitt backed up until the gate hung over the steps then parked the truck. He and Jim hopped out and got to work unloading everything. No matter what it was, they made it look effortless. Leather sofa, love seat, recliner, queen bed, bunk beds, dressers. They never appeared winded nor did they need a break. I stayed with the boys until all the big pieces were inside. Then, we followed.
I hadn’t been in the apartment since I’d given Emmitt my opinion on the bathroom color. This time when I stepped into the kitchen from the hallway door, I looked at it with new eyes.
The living room was no longer a big, empty cavern. The sofa and loveseat helped fill the space, making it look homey. Someone had positioned both so they faced a widescreen television. I wondered where the money had come from for all the new furniture. The boys raced to the back of the apartment. I watched Nana set the end tables near the sofa.
Feeling pensive, I moved to the boys’ bedroom where I heard Jim and Emmitt talking. A bedframe, the first of a pair that would stack for bunk beds, lay half-assembled on the floor. The boys squatted nearby, eagerly asking to help. Jim handed them the screws and bolts to hold, and I smiled at their enthusiasm before glancing at the two matching dressers that sentineled one of the room’s windows. A toy chest sat under the other window, leaving room for the bunk bed to abut the interior wall.
I watched from the doorway for a moment, wondering if my brothers thought of their room back home. Large and open with a few toys to entertain their lonely hours locked inside, it had originally been the master suite. After my mother died, Richard had contractors come to the house to make several changes. In my grief, I noticed nothing until it was too late. Bare, white institutional walls had replaced the beautiful decorations and colors my mom had contributed, and discreet locks had adorned the doors.
The room before me looked like a real room for two little boys. Bittersweet thoughts of how my mom would react to Emmitt’s efforts filled me.