Mira’s Pov:
It’s like a constant battle within myself, questioning whether his behavior will change once he discovers the truth. Deep down, I know that everything will be different if he finds out. And I don’t expect him to choose me over his brother, and if he does, it could change their bond. I don’t want to be the cause of any harm or disruption in their relationship. I’m certain that Virginia’s feelings towards me would also be affected if he chooses to be with me. It’s a challenging situation, but being considerate of everyone’s emotions is important.
I feel like everything is going to change, and I’ll be the one causing it. That’s why I think I should distance myself from the two brothers and find a way to escape from this situation. I need to make sure that neither of them finds out before I can leave for who knows where.
Because It’s hard to imagine myself in a situation where everyone sees me as a misfortune and curses me. If they were to find out the truth, I’d be the laughing stock, and no one would want anything to do with me. It’s a scary thought, and tough to imagine Virginia or Alpha Den not looking at me with adoration or pride. And the other rank members, they won’t see me the same way anymore. I can’t help but worry that Mr. Peter, the gamma, will use this as an opportunity to point fingers at me like I never belonged here in the first place. That’s a lot to handle.
“I am serious……I want to know you,” His words caught me off guard, and I gaped at him. I thought I was the only one here. I have even forgotten that I am not alone. I swallowed hard and shifted my focus to something else, trying to distract myself from locking eyes with him.
“I am serious, just give me the chance to know you and I promise that you won’t regret it,” Lifting my chin, he mumbled, almost pleading for me to let him into my life. It feels difficult and impossible to accept him, but I know I need to overcome any obstacles that come my way. No matter who or where they may be, I’m determined to reach my destination.
“I know that it is more than a bond between mates…… there is something there and I am sure that you felt it too,” His words slipped out as a mutter. I found myself captivated, staring at the way his lips moved when he spoke. They held a certain softness and a slightly smaller size. I couldn’t help but wonder if they were as soft as they appeared, and how they would feel against my own lips. Electric sparkles shoot from the place he was holding me all over my body, and I want his whole hands all over me.
“Kissable….” I mumbled within, “What the fuck!!…” Groaning in frustration, I can’t help but be angrier at myself than at him. I know I’m supposed to distance myself and escape from this situation, but here I am, consumed by salacious images of us together. It’s a conflicting and overwhelming feeling, but I need to remind myself of my escape and prioritize it above all else.
“Hey, excuse me,” I cleared my throat, trying to gather my thoughts. “I don’t feel anything….. this is just the mate bond,”
“No, this is more than a mate bond….. I love you and I feel something huge for you,” Feeling his breath gently caress my cheeks, I couldn’t help but feel a mix of curiosity and suspicion. Taking a step back, I maintained a cautious distance between us.
“Love….. You didn’t tell me that you are a funny dude. How can you feel something about a person that you know nothing about?” I surprisingly let out the words but in a mocking tone.
“I don’t care….. Then give me the chance to know what I truly felt for you because I know that there is something there,” He pleaded, his eyes filled with a mix of emotions that left me feeling weak in the knees. I cleared my throat, mustered my composure, and stood tall.
“You have to stop…….” I nervously murmured to him, trying to convey seriousness, but it came out more like a plea. It’s frustrating that the words didn’t even match my intentions. This feeling is new and different, even compared to my connection with Nicholas.
“And what if I refuse……” Derrick said, and he mischievously scanned my face. In an instant, I turned away, avoiding his penetrating gaze.
“Mate, love us,” Heaven mumbled, jumping up with her paws in happiness. It’s heartwarming to see her joy but this……. Is not the right time.
“No… no… no, Heaven! This guy is just deceiving us,” I warned her insistently.
“But mate seems nice…” Heaven persistently mumbled.
“Just stop it, Heaven!… Whether he was telling the truth or whatever, we are not accepting him,” I said before shutting her up in the back of my head. I need to concentrate and get this done once and for all.
“I have been talking, but you haven’t responded to me. Or could I say that your mind wasn’t here?” Derrick said with a furrowed eyebrow.
“Uhmm…. I was startled at his words, so he had been talking and I didn’t even know. Oh! I was talking with Heaven, that little stubborn she-wolf,” I retorted, talking to myself in my head.
“Was just having some chit-chat with my wolf,” I forced out a smile.
“Oh! About that… my regards to her,” he shyly muttered as he nervously scratched the back of his head.
“Yeah, umm….. I mean okay,” I gave him a phony smile. So he can be shy, but he looks so cute especially when he is shy. I am damn sure that Heaven will be on cloud nine by now.
“Same applies to you…..” I instantly heard a voice in my head. Ouch! This wolf is fucking stubborn. I thought that I blocked her, but hell no, she will struggle to make her way out. I roll my eyes at her before blocking her. This time, I ensured that I blocked her before she made me go crazy.
“Seems like your wolf is a stubborn type…..” He laughed. “The same with Ethan….” He announced.
“Ethan……..” I almost moaned out the name, as the name rolled out of my lips like it was meant only for me to pronounce it.
“Yeah, Ethan is my wolf…….” His eyes turned a shade of black as lust flickered at them. I bewilderedly stared at him as I swallowed hard, still breathing. I notice that his wolf is at the edge of coming out.
“Especially whenever he sees or is around his mate, the one person that makes sense in this world…….. the one that he doesn’t care about getting drowned in her ocean of love,” he covered the distance between us, and damn, I felt nervous. My whole hand was sweating, and my eyes popped out of their sockets as I gawked at him. His eyes moved from my eyes down to my lips, and I could feel the tension building up.
However, he stares at me for permission, biting my lips. I noticed his eyes turned darker. His heated gaze wasn’t helping the matter because I fucking feel aroused under his gaze, I just pray that he doesn’t notice my uneasiness or smell my arousal because that will be my doom.
Having been standing there for hours, my heart raced as he started bending his head, his lips moving closer to mine. Inch by inch, his lips kept moving closer, and time seemed to slow down. With his eyes closed, he inched even closer, the anticipation building with each passing minute.
I could feel his breath, the intoxicating warmth from his mouth. My heart was throbbing, beating so fast that the person beside me could hear it. I wanted to back down and run away, but my leg felt too heavy to move. I was paralyzed in that spot, screaming at myself to let go and escape, but my body seemed to have a mind of its own. It was a whirlwind of emotions and desires, pulling me in despite the screams at the back of my head.
“Stop!!….” I half-whispered as his lips were almost on mine. With my heart pounding, I mustered the courage to place my hands on his chest and took a step backward.
“Why…?” he confusingly asked, pain and hurt visible in his eyes. I wiggled my head in a disapproving manner, continuing to take a step back.
“Please wait…” he pleaded, noticing that I had made up my mind. He tried taking a step toward me, but I stood my ground, firm in my decision.
“Stay the fuck away from me!!…” I yelled, turning around and taking off. I need to clear my head and put an end to this madness.