Jules knew what he was talking about and she was a little sad that he hadn’t considered anything long term with her. She was fine dating him for now, but what was he planning on doing when things moved further.
Was she just someone he wanted to date and ignore when he felt like it?
She couldn’t believe she was allowing herself to believe whatever was going on between Ceaser and her was something, anything.
Guess she missed having someone to depend on.
“It’s ok.” She said “It’s not a topic for a first date or a second…or any date.” Her eyebrows furrowed “If what we’ve been doing is even considered dating.”
“Hey.” Ceaser turned her around to face him “I have loved every second of being with you, and yes we’ve been dating. I’ve just never considered discussing my past with anyone before.”
“That’s fair considering I haven’t told you about my past either. We can’t let other people’s reasons be the reason we tell them something. It has to be because we want to.” She paused “But I made a mistake.” She confessed and Ceaser looked confused.
“What mistake?” He asked.
Jules looked down as she played with her fingers “It’s been a while since I ‘dated’ anyone and I guess I put too much hope in you…” she looked up at him “…in us, at least whatever was, is happening between us.” She paused. “I forgot what it was like to be taken care of, to have someone else be there for you. When you started coming over, I thought you could be that person. Well, I hoped. Then when you didn’t show up for a while, I was so sure you’d given up. It hurt a little cause I was already depending on you even though I didn’t want to. And it hurt even more when Ivy said ‘Dada’ every time.”
“I’m sorry about that. I just had to clear up some things” He said.
“See?” Jules said frowning “I shouldn’t make you feel like you’re responsible for Ivy, or me, or anything relating to us. You shouldn’t feel obligated to us or feel sorry when you can’t be there for us. You have a life of your own and I just have to let what my brain knows to sink into my heart.”
“Listen to me and listen to me good.” He grabbed my arms and took a step closer “I’m apologizing because I need to, not because I think that’s what you need to hear. I stayed away because I needed to figure out the way I felt about you.”
Jules stared at him in shock and she swallowed hard.
“Yes Jules. You’re not the only one that feels the tension when one of us is near. This may have started out wrongly but…”
Wrongly? What was he talking about?
“… I like where it might lead to”
Jules didn’t know how she got so close to him and into his arms.
“Ceaser, if you’re saying this because you pity me, you don’t even…” Jules was silenced with his lips on hers.
She gasped in shock from the contact of their lips. His lips were soft but possessive and rough. At the same time, it was slow and passionate. He bit her lower lip and she moaned at the shiver it sent all over her. He pulled her closer and plunged his tongue inside her mouth and played with her tongue. She moaned from the contact of. His hands roamed beneath his jacket, over her naked back sending waves of desire through her, her hands were behind his neck pulling him closer, if it were even possible. Her fingers tugged at his hair and it earned her a groan from him.
When they couldn’t hold it any longer, they pulled apart gasping for air.
“Ceaser…” it was all she could get out of her mouth with her mind all messed up.
She felt his lips on hers again, but this time it was slow and not rushed like the first one. He pulled away slowly and placed his forehead on hers. She closed her eyes and sighed in contentment.
“Does that clear all your doubts?” He asked, his mind still jumbled from the kiss they just shared.
She nodded her head.
“We should get back.” Ceaser said. “My mum would be wondering where I went in search of you” He smiled.
She smiled and withdrew from him pulling his jacket off her and handing it back to him. They made their way back inside with her hand in his.