Usually, her touch brings calmness in me but the truth has destroyed that calmness and the more she is near me the more I am feeling suffocated from the amount of anger in me.
After trying to tame my anger in me I lifted my head up to look at her and from her gasp I realised I am not doing a good job in hiding my feelings. When she asked me what happened I lied saying there was an attack from Black Jack co. As I said the company’s name I noticed her face going pale and that made me more angrier. It was true that there was an attack from the BlackJack co. but it wasn’t anything out of ordinary as every month my company have had suffered attacks from them as part of their moves on taking out the company capable of succeeding them.
But now my team have excelled in taking right actions against them so as to not let them cause us any more harms.
Though I knew the reason behind her paling I asked her the reason yet she lied by trying her usual corny jokes that I used to find amusement in. But now it is different. I don’t find amusement in my enemy’s jokes.
But seeing her refuse to eat brought some old feeling in me that I forced her to eat. I asked her again what happened to which she shook her head not being able to bring out words from her mouth to lie in my face. Atleast she had the decency to avoid lying to my face. But the more she denied the more I got angrier I lost all my appetite when I had none to begin with.
I refused to eat while lying about the fake meeting, I got up and left to work.
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At work I couldn’t bear the sight of her anymore. To not let her notice my anger I left early planning my next move.
When I reached home I decided to torture her to tell the truth like I do with the oponents I have. But even the thought of her sadness makes something in me break into pieces.
Was that the remaining piece of my heart that was shattered? If it was, it was safe to say I had none left anymore. Now it is just there to beat to sustain the life in me. Though metaphorically I feel dead.
Now onwards I will be doing everything in my power to see her and her company fall. And for that I am going to use her father’s lessons against her.
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When she came home I had devised plans to sexually torture her but the moment I had wrapped my arms around her feeling her soft body against mine, what I thought was gone had started to beat wildly. When she tried to move away I tightened my hold on her enjoying the last moment of little happiness and content I felt. Knowing that I would no longer feel that happiness and contentment from holding her or seeing her made me want to scream and cry but I tried to hold my tears back.
Not being able to tolerate the pain and rage in my heart I got straight to the point.
“Why, is the heiress of the BlackJack so prideful that she doesn’t want to be with her almost-to-be-poor boyfriend anymore? Oh did I mention that it was because of her that my company is facing loses?”
I removed my arms around her while maintaining the coldness in my eyes and making sure there was no tears in my eyes, I turned the light on.
Watching the tears falling from her eyes as she closed her eyes it broke me completely making me suffocate. I wanted to run away from here. This feeling was too suffocating to bear. And I thought I was dead. But my heart which is supposed to only make me alive is making feel things I am not supposed to.
As she released a breath I knew that she realised I knew the truth.
It took everything in me to stand in the position I am in. The sadness in her eyes that once took the breath out of me because of love is now taking my whole soul out of my body from the inevitable sadness.
Everything ends now.
Our happiness, the contentment in being together, love, 3-years of hiding from her, making up, all that ends here.
And with that thought I let one tear out of my eyes as I too closed my eyes and opened them with nothing but cruel coldness as she too opened hers.
Showing her numbness.