But since a lot of things are problematic to the outsiders its not really an issue anymore, about what they think.
Me getting back to work immediately after the funeral was a problem for many. Me fighting with my mom’s sister was also a problem for many, saying I shouldn’t be greedy and leave the company to family. If she didn’t consider me family enough to steal the company from me while I was grieving, I don’t have to consider her as family either right?
Anyway before I get mad about her I should get to what we were talking about.
“True. When you find the right one, others would just be a small character in a book no matter how serious they were. Some giving us lesson, some just leaving their bruise marks in us, like how some fold the upper corner of the book as a bookmark, no matter how much we tell them we hate it, they still do it, not caring what we want but what they want. To them it might be right but just leaving an unwanted mark in our book.” I said swirling the contents of drink in the glass.
“You are not just talking about exs nor book, right? Hasn’t that aunt of yours left yet?” She asked turning her body towards me.
“No. But leave about that. These days I feel like its been all about me. Tell me about you.” I said turning towards hercas well.
“Nah, I didn’t care one bit about that. Well between funeral, family stealing, my hiding, two laptop searchings, where do you have time for other things. I am hundred percent sure the romance in your life had also been muddled up by those things.
I shrugged while smirking. To which she just shook her head.
Well to throw away Ryder time for solving laptop case, no matter how important it is, would be crazy. I would be crazy, to be honest. Ryder was a good distraction from the reality. Without him, it would have been crazy hard to deal with all this.
To be real, I have been pushing everything to the back of my mind. I have no idea when it is going to bite me back. But I don’t want to think about it now when I have a sense of foreboding, that something bad is going to happen in the near future. Maybe because of this unresolved issue with dealing with the situation in hand that I must be feeling this way.
But something in me tells me otherwise. Well I only have to deal with it once its here right? I hope I will have the strength to deal with it when it comes to slap me in the face.
Before I worry too much about the future I cant avoid, I decided to live in the current moment. I can worry about the future later, right?
“So how is your company?” I asked changing the topic from despair.
“My company is running the way it always has been, nothing much change has occurred. Dad is still the head while I am just in the accounting department to know the company from inside. Thank God, there’s no loss and only profits, though there’s been a dip recently. But I am not worrying about it too much since it always happens towards the month end. But its enough for Ryder to eat my head.” She grimaced. Ryder is their business partner. It was also partly the reason why he allowed to meet them when he had no contact with me.
When uncle Nick asked her to run the company, she insisted on starting from the basics and not directly taking over uncle’s position since she didn’t want people to say she was spoon fed and that she didn’t work for it. Though both Uncle and my opinion was to take any position she wants to and not to care about what others says, because both of us and even Mandy knows, though she is in denial, that people are going to talk no matter if she earned it hard or not.
Talk about people in denial. I think everyone would be in denial atleast once in our life. Its in our nature to avoid things to the last till it hits us back. Either it is our defense mechanism to avoid danger or the coward part of us running away from. But rarely people tend to face it.
Though little did I know that, the next day with no preparation beforehand, I had to face it. Alone.