*Ryder’s POV
“What you forgive me?” I asked her again not believing what she just said.
She holds my face in both her hands. I close my eyes and lean into her hands relishing in the feeling that her touch gave me.
“Yes. I. Forgive. You.” She said with kisses on my eyelids after each word.
I didn’t open my eyes instead I closed them more tightly to hold my tears back. I was happy, overjoyed and relieved that she forgave me. So relieved that made me want to cry. She sensing my need to cry hugs me and I keep my head on her chest to which she didn’t have any complains and she pulled both of us back so that she was sitting with her back to the headboard and held me tightly with her face on my hair.
“I love you. So much. That it hurts to not forgive you. What you did was stupid but I can’t hold your past against you instead I can help you to overcome the guilt you have for what you have done.” She said without breaking the way we were sitting.
“I am sorry.” I said and felt tears rolling down my cheeks.
“Hey hey shhhh.” She said by rubbing my arms. God I am such a cry baby but I just couldn’t hold back my tears.
I haven’t even cried for my parents’ funeral which I never attended nor did I visit their graves. I think all that cold mask I have put up for 3 years is finally broken and that is taking a toll on me that all the sadness, anger for what I did is mixed together and coming out as tears.
She held me like that for a few minutes and when my back started to hurt and I started to shift she pulled us both down to lay on the bed with my face on her chest and I don’t know when we fell asleep but I was pretty exhausted after ‘the talk’ that I woke up at morning. I think she too must have been exhausted that when I woke up the roles were changed and she was on my chest while I had both my arms wrapped around her. I must admit that the talk was mentally exhausting.
And since it was a Saturday, it meant we can lay down little more as we didn’t have to go to office. I laid down without moving so that I wont wake her up. By now the fever I had was gone. I am only scared if she got my fever but was relieved when I touched her forehead to check the temperature and it was warm not hot.
After checking her temperature, I kept my arm back to its place that is around her waist, and looked at her sleeping peacefully. She was so beautiful. I am such one lucky man. I thank my stars for meeting her.
The first time I met her was at playground when she was 3 and I was 5. She was on ground crying and a boy was standing there laughing at her. From looking at the scene I understood that he pushed her off the slide and was mocking her. I had this sudden urge to protect her and defend her so I went and pushed the boy back with such a force that he fell on the ground and went to her to pick her up from the floor. While I was dusting off her dress the bully pushed me down and I felt very angry because the boy dared to pick a fight with me. I got off the ground to push him down and me on top of him and before I could punch him, I was pulled off by a pair of big arms. I turned my head to see that it was Mr. Marshal and he said the boy was not worth my anger which made me cool down. And I went to the crying Kat while Mr. Marshal went to the boy and advised him.
I tried to stop her crying because it made me want to cry which was odd as I was one such bad naughty boy. And suddenly I noticed her looking at a particular direction and when I looked at that direction, I found a girl with a cupcake in her hands which made me smile because I found her weakness and said I will get the cupcake for her but she ran off before I could say anything else. Long gone was the crying Kat the next thing I saw was Kat fighting with the girl, the latter holding her cupcake behind her back. I too ran off in that direction to take Kat from there and get her a cupcake from my house before she could do something to that poor girl. My Kat was such a strong girl even at such an age.
I was smiling to that memory that I didn’t notice Kat woke up.
“What made you smile so big in the morning. Dream?” She asked to which I nodded.
“A beautiful dream that did happen.” I said to which she furrowed her eyebrows. I explained further saying, “I was remembering the time when we met for the first time.
She too smiled at that. “mm. Bully, me crying, you came as my knight in the shining armour, me fighting with that poor girl for cupcake.” She chuckled at the memory.
“Good morning.” She said pecking my lips.
“That was hardly a morning kiss. This is a morning kiss.” I closed our distance with my lips on hers.
*Warning: there is a small kissing scene
Her lips, like I had remembered it to be, was soft which made me want to kiss her all the time. The moment I had my lips on hers I had a beautiful sensation making me turned on. I swiped her bottom lips with my tongue in silent question to open her mouth to which she gladly opened.
Soon we were kissing passionately compensating for all the time we have lost together. To my unfortunate that made me harden more which was painful as I wanted nothing but to be inside her at that moment but I knew I got to stop this before I take this to next level, which I am pretty sure she might not be ready for it as it was just few hours before we found our way back to each other after everything we have been through. Or the things I have made us both go through in our relationship but pushing her away.
*End of kissing scene
“Now that is what I call a morning kiss.” I said after we pulled apart to breathe.
She chuckled and tightened her hold on me with her face on my chest. “That is the way you want your morning kiss to be.” She corrected to which I nodded my head and held her even tightly with my nose in her hair inhaling her addicting scent.
She after few minutes tried to get up but I tightened my hold and pulled her closer.
“Ry I need to go to the bathroom or else I will pee in your bed.” And that made me release who wouldn’t. She chuckled and got off the bed stretching and went to the bathroom. Whereas I laid back for more time, thinking of the past few hours before we slept.
Me from being nervous to relieved after saying everything and knowing about the Gardener family then to being scared of not knowing her answer to preparing myself for the worst and then to breaking down. With a deep yawn I got up from my bed and stretched.
“Ry I need a toothbrush.” Came a call from the bathroom.
I went inside and found her rampaging the entire bathroom and chuckled at her annoyed form. She can get annoyed very easily. I bent down to open the drawer under the sink and got the new brush I had stocked and gave it to her to which she puffed.
“Can’t you keep it somewhere where it can be found.” She said irritatingly and went to open the drawers searching for the paste and the paste she found was empty.
“Ry for once can you throw the empty things in dustbin?” She said puffing and went back to searching for the paste. Well I do have the habit of forgetting to throw off the empty things, be it paste or shampoo bottles.
I bent down to help her get the new paste. After giving that to her, she started brushing her teeth after putting the paste on her brush. I went to take my brush and after taking the paste from her, putting paste on the brush and brushed along with her. I didn’t know these moments together were something I missed a lot until I met her again. Thank god that she kept appearing in front of me unintentionally.
After we were done with our morning things, we both got down the stairs and turned to left to go to the kitchen that had dining room attached to it and saw Aunt Jennifer, my housekeeper. She has been there as our housekeeper from the time I was 4 year till now. She is like a mother-like figure to me not only because she is 52-year-old, but because she used to scold me but still took care of me when I had hangovers from the alcohol. Always advised me not to go on the wrong path that I was going. I just never paid any heed to it. I do regret it but I can’t say I do regret it very much because it was what made me what I am today. I am not too regretful but not too happy for my decisions in past.
But one thing I am sure that I am very happy is to see Kat checking what was for breakfast and almost drooling over the tasty pancake Aunt J was making to which the latter laughed seeing Kat’s impatience. I chuckled and went around the kitchen to put my arms around Kat’s waist after saying Aunt J good morning and picked Kat up and walked around the counter to much of hers protests like a 4-year-old kid and put her on one of the seats and before she could jump back down, I pecked her lips. She blushed and covered her cheeks in her palms and leaned to me, which made me chuckle she was such a cutie pie, my cute kitty Kat. When I looked up, I saw Aunt J smile at me warmly knowing the meaning behind her smile and I returned my smile to confirm her thoughts on the new me, the happy one.
When Aunt J kept our plates containing pancakes with honey syruped and butter on top for me and for her chocolate syruped and blue berries on top, she left the kitchen to us.
Kat the moment she got her food, all her concentration was on it, forgetting everything else around her. She is a foodie. I have no idea how she manages to maintain her shape. This question will surely appear in your mind if you see the way she ate. After the first bite she moaned which made me hard instantly. I groaned and she looked at me guiltily to which I shook my head and got back into eating.
To say the whole time we were eating, was hard for me would be an understatement no matter how much time I have warned her she wouldn’t stop moaning.
“Okay that’s it. If you don’t want me to bend you over the table right now and fuck the hell out of you for being such a little tease right you better stop doing what you are doing.” I said groaning putting my fork down.
“I don’t know what you are talking about.” She said looking at me innocently. Did I add fake to it?
“Kat you are way beyond innocent. Get back to your food like a good girl and don’t make it more difficult that it already is. I am trying to take things slow here.”
“Maybe I don’t want you to take things slow.” She said with low voice.
“You know I heard, that right?” I asked turning to look at her narrowing my eyes.
“I said intending for you to hear. And we are way past taking things slow after all the years we have been together forgetting the last 3 years.” She said looking at me with lust filled eyes. I had to grip the seat tighter for me to not have my way with her right then and there.
“Not today because today I want to give you a trip around this house that I built with you in my mind though I knew I wouldn’t let you in but I just couldn’t build this house without the touches for you. You were, are and will always be my weakness. And I think it was because I knew that you will be able to bring the old me back that I pushed you away, the mere thought of being that vulnerable didn’t sit well with me. Little did I know that all thoughts of pushing you away will be gone the minute I see you again. I love you.” I said looking at her intently.
“I love you too, lets the forget the past and move on because these pancakes are killing me for not eating them.” That made us both laugh and we got back to our breakfast, with a comfortable silence between us as her full concentration was on the pancakes as it was her favourite which you would have figured out by now, while I looked at her with a big smile on my face thanking my stars again for meeting her.