EPISODE FORTY NINE.
“you know I will never let you do that?”He chuckled, pulling me back to the bed.
“Why?”I asked, confused. I thought all men loved it. He also ate me the other day.
“I don’t know. It makes me feel like they were my subordinates or something. I don’t like it, Hazel.”
“I just wanted to-”
“I know. But I’m meant to give you all the pleasures. That doesn’t make me feel less of a man. But this might make you feel bad. The same way you felt the first time we had sex.”He explained in such a calm and soothing manner, rubbing on my tummy as well.
As if he knew something was there, His baby. Our baby. Gosh.
“Thank you.”I whispered, locking my lips with his. My hands were in his soft hair as we smooched each other lips.
“What happened to your body? Are you okay?”He asked suddenly, pulling away from the kiss.
My heart skipped a bit, lost of words. My hands were tightened on the below behind him, as I was still in his arms.
“Babe-“He called, rubbing his hands more on my tummy.
“I think- I’m fine. Maybe I’ve been sleeping much, lately.”
“Not talking about that. You’ve become sensitive and more delicate. Is there something you want to tell me?”
“No, Stefano. No.”I shook my head.
He nodded before pulling me back to his arms. I just wished I could tell him everything without mincing words. But I can’t-
He didn’t continue our makeout, instead, he pulled me to his arms and we both slept off.
AMANDA.
My hands roamed on the windows, staring at the dark night, my mind was blank all this while, not knowing what I was doing. Why I was here at the window side, sitting beside and staring at nothing instead of cuddling with Megan, who has been having a hard time sleeping since that incident happened.
Suddenly, I felt a strong masculine arms wrapped around me, engulfing me completely in his strong hands. Luca.
I smiled lightly before turning to him, but my eyes widened the moment I realized. Megan.
“She’s not here. She sneaked out with Labrinth. They are having girls night.”He whispered as if he just heard my thoughts.
“Thank goodness. She’s going to make an issue out of it.”I chuckled.
Luca scooped me in his arms softly, taking me to the bed like I weighed nothing, He dropped me carefully and made to leave but I grabbed him by the shirt, which caught him by surprise.
“Thank you, Luca.”I mumbled, my eyes laced with lots of unsure emotions, why do I feel safe differently with this guy? why does he make me feel things I swore not to make myself feel again?
And why’s he not reciprocating it?
“For what?”He asked, leaning into me. Kissing me lightly on my lips. Oh.
“For everything. For making me snap out of my nightmares. For-”
“You’re my responsibility. Our responsibility, Amanda. You might be the oldest among us but you’re still a baby. The baby who squeals and giggle at the sight of strawberry cakes. You’re still that young naive woman, to me.”He crooned me softly.
“I love you so much. I love you gu-, I love you Luca.”I mumbled, deepening the kiss, finally pushing him on top of me.
His hand went to my cheeks, pressing my face more into his, as we kissed breathlessly. This is like our first official kiss. And it feels so good. Heavenly. Magnificent.
I literally melted in his arms, as he grabbed my hips, pushing me closer to the bed.
He suddenly tore his lips away from mine, squinting his eyes, like he just regretted something. Not again-
“I’m sorry, I just-”
“You’re regretting it again?”I whispered, not letting go of his body.
“I don’t. But, I can’t.”He sighed.
“Is it because of what happened? Because I’ve been molested? That’s why you don’t want to have anything to do with me?”I asked, tears streaming down my face.
Luca has never confessed his love to me, Even though, I’ve done that many times but he just laughed it off. Probably, he still think that I can’t get over my ex-husband. He still wants to respect me. Or-
“Christ, I will never think of that. To me, you’re not a soiled person, you’re still Amanda, you’re still her.”He defended himself, Cupping my cheeks again but I tore my glance away from his.
“Just go. And don’t lead me on like this anymore. I must be a fool for thinking you’ve let go of my past.”I stuttered, throwing myself back to the bed.
“I’m trying to respect Stefano. He won’t like it if he knew that I’m in love with his beloved sister.”He finally confessed, holding his breath at intervals.
I sprang up immediately with my eyes widened, shocked at his confessions.
“You’re in love with me? Luca?”I asked, surprised.
“I fucking burn for you, Amanda. That it makes me sick and mad that I can never have you the way I want. I can’t make out with you anywhere I want because I don’t want to disrespect you.”
“Don’t make me feel old. I’m only a year older than you.”I scoffed, widening my legs on the bed, even though, nothing is revealed, Luca eyes went there, squinting his eyes shut, He snaked his hands into his hair, frustrated.
Gosh. He’s so into me. How could I have not noticed this before?
“Then, why can’t you have me? why are you scared of something that hasn’t happened? Leave Stefano to me. I will handle it.”I whispered, moving my hands to his shirt, rubbing on it.
“I will handle it, Amanda. I promise.”He whispered, locking my eyes with his before kissing me back.