EPISODE THIRTY TWO
HAZEL.
His expression didn’t change a bit despite the fact that I yelled at him not to touch me.
His facial features softened more, I look so vulnerable.
Why did such a thing have to affect me?
I thought I was over it already. Sex is really a sensitive practice, I shouldn’t have let him do it that night.
My chest tightened the more as I kept on remembering what happened. It hurts so bad.
The fact that he didn’t even apologize for what he did hurts a lot.
I locked the door behind me but he didn’t leave, He kept on knocking softly. Hoping I will open the door.
“Hazel. Please. Open the door.”He pleads.
I continued yelling at him to leave. His voice is the last thing I want to hear right now.
“Just don’t hurt yourself. I will leave.”He finally says.
I didn’t hear anything from him again. He left.
I unlocked the door and went to bed to get some sleep so I could calm myself down.
STEFANO.
I wished I didn’t hurt her that night, This shouldn’t have happened.
I made her first sex horrible for her. I’m really a bad person.
I felt so guilty putting her in that trauma.
All I want to do right now is to solve it amicably and apologize to her but I don’t know how to.
Hours passed, Amanda and Megan are back already but Mom isn’t.
I couldn’t bring myself to check up on Hazel. I don’t want her to yell at me anymore or make her angry.
Amanda entered my room without knocking, I turned to her and smiled lightly.
She sat on the edge of the bed, staring at me keenly.
She looks like she really has lots of things to say but doesn’t know where and how to start.
“Is there a problem?”
“She just took her bath. I left her on the bed. She hasn’t snapped out of it yet.”
“What?”I ask as if I don’t know what’s going on.
“Stef. I saw her body. I saw everything the first night we came. Megan was mad at you for ruining her body. You went too far. Her body is damaged beyond measure. I had to put her into an unconscious state to take care of her without her knowledge.”Amanda rambled on and on.
“And you knew what I went through too!”She yelled.
“Amanda, please.”I cut her off. My eyes glinted in pain and anger.
Tears fell down her eyes as she talked. I slam my forehead tiredly not knowing what to say. There’s no words to justify my actions.
“Why did you do it?”She asked in a calm tone.
“I was mad because she didn’t tell me that she was a virgin. I thought she’s doing it because she wanted to win my favor.”
“And why did she do it?”
“I made an attempt to kiss her but changed my mind that particular night. Things were fucking rough between us before that night. I suddenly felt attracted to her. But she came to my room begging me to have sex with her. She said she wanted to relieve me of my sexual urge. I was mad and angry.”
“She just wanted to help. Is that why you’re not making an attempt to do anything for her? She’s lacking many things and I don’t even know how she coped in the last six months of staying with you.”She explained, laying emphasis on each word.
“I didn’t know.”
“Do you want her? You want her to stay?”
“She’s changing my perspectives about this whole thing called marriage and… Amanda… I’m beginning to like every bit of it. But I’ve hurt her many times.”
“Apologize to her.”
“I will.”
“Now.”
“Am…”
“Tonight.”She insists and stands up from the bed.
“Take her out and get some fresh air with her. Talk things out. Just do it.”She advised.
I nod slowly.
“I will. Thank you.”I smile at her but she isn’t leaving.
“Did she know who you are?”She ask worriedly.
I sigh, rubbing my forehead.”No. She’s so soft. She won’t be able to take it unless I start to get nice to her.”
“Take things slowly. She will adapt in no time.”she assured and left.
I checked the time and it’s almost 8PM. I sigh tiredly and went to the bathroom to take my bath.
After bathing, I wore an expensive checker shirt and a baggy jeans with a white inner top.
I feel so uneasy about this whole stuff. This is what I should have done a long time ago.
I walk out of the room heading to her room.
They were playing loud music which was enough to block someone’s eardrum.
I entered the room just to see the trio dancing to the pop music. They were having karaoke while Hazel was lying on the bed timidly.
She’s in her nightgown already, I can say she’s literally naked, The netted nightgown Amanda got for her is so revealing.
I ignored them and walked to the edge of the bed, Where she’s lying.
Hazel froze the moment she saw me, She tried sitting up but I held her down by her waist.
“Hazel.”I called for no reason.
She breathed heavily and tears slipped down her face.
“Stef. I’m sorry.”She mumbled.
I chuckled softly, I rubbed her back carefully and watched her cry.”It’s fine”I coaxed softly.
“Do you want to go out with me?”I ask.
She nodded immediately.
“Let’s go.”I widened my arms for her.
She placed her both hands on my shoulder, I grabbed her legs and wrapped it around my waist.
She rested her head on my shoulder and let me take her to my room.
I place her carefully at the edge of the bed, I knelt in front of her, staring at her keenly.
“I didn’t mean to. I was just scared. I…”
I peck her cheek briefly and chuckle.
“Wear this dress. I will be waiting for you outside.”I ruffle her hair, leaving her in shock.
*
Hazel came downstairs looking ravishing as usual.
The little dress fits her so well.
“I’m ready,”She announced.
She walked to the black car timidly.”I’m not taking that. The key isn’t with me.”I raise the key to the jeep beside me.
“Oh.”She nods.
After helping her sit, I hop into the driver’s seat and zoom out of the compound.
She was facing the window, staring at the street as usual.
“Hazel.”I called. She only hummed in response.
I made her turn to me by holding her hand.
“Are you angry at me?”I ask in a soft voice.
She nodded slowly, I took a deep breath of relief. Finally, we are getting there.
“About what?”I pressed more.
She stared at me briefly before bowing her head.
“Everything you did to me. The words you said to me in our marriage. The hurtful things you did. Your nonchalant attitudes. And letting your female friend disrespect me. You disrespected me by having an affair with her. You slept with me in a brutal manner and you didn’t feel remorseful for it. Everything you did to me… Hurts.”She ends the last sentence in a dense voice sobbing.
“I didn’t mean to. I had lots of things to say but no words can justify my actions. I felt guilty for everything too.”I rambled on and on.
I already packed the car so we can talk before we get to the restaurant.
Hazel wasn’t having it, She didn’t seem convinced of my sincere apology.
“I didn’t even know you lacked lots of things. All I cared about is making sure I ruined the marriage so you can pack your things and leave. I should have seen the better side of you.”
“You’re such a jerk.”She cursed for the first time.
I nod solemnly to her words.
Yes. I’m a jerk.
“Yes. I am. But I’m ready to make this work now. Hazel.”
“I’m sorry.”
*
He apologized!
I love this new development.
Thanks for reading.