What she said made Elijah feel a sharp pain in his heart, “Esther…”
“I’m tired and I want to sleep, can you hug me to sleep?” she said.
“Okay!” he sobbed.
He couldn’t sleep in the night, not a single wink. When the sun rose, he passed out and napped briefly. Esther woke up and left the room.
She called Philip and asked for a bottle of sleeping pills.
Philip asked her what it was for, but she didn’t explain. Philip brought the pills over anyways.
Quinn was worried about Esther, “Madam, you’re up already. Do you want something to eat? I’ll cook something!”
Philip then realized that the pills were for Elijah.
“Philip, how long can he sleep with two pills?”
“This is a good one, so about a whole day!”
“Esther…”
“Philip, I know everything. Can you accompany me to the surgery? Don’t let him go, he will not be able to handle it. He couldn’t sleep well for a long time now. Don’t tell him what I know, okay?”
Philip could only nod his head somberly listening to her request.
During the meal, Elijah ate the soup that Quinn made per Esther’s request so that Esther wouldn’t be so worried about him.
After a while, his head felt heavy.
Philip brought Elijah to the room. After that, Esther changed her clothes and said to Philip, “Philip, let’s go to the hospital!”
“Esther!” Philip went up and hugged her, “My dear Esther, I feel so sorry for you!”
Esther shook her head while being in his arms, “I’m okay, Elijah is in a worse spot. He hides everything he feels, I cannot let him see this in person!”
At the hospital.
Esther lied down on the cold surgery table. She chose surgery as she already thought about the pros and cons of taking the abortion pill. The doctor said that there was a 10% chance that the abortion wouldn’t be completely clean with the pill. They would then have to do surgery to clean the remaining out, and hence she just chose to do surgery from the start. She just wanted to let this soul, who wasn’t predestined to be with Elijah and her, go to heaven soon.
The baby was growing inside of her without a heart, such a careless baby. They weren’t predestined to be together!
She just hoped that their next baby would remember to bring a heart with them as she couldn’t handle this a second time!
The cold surgery tools penetrated her body, she couldn’t feel any pain.
Even if she could, the pain could never compare to the pain she was feeling in her heart.
It was only three minutes. The surgery only lasted three minutes and it was done!
She felt something dripping out of her body.
It was bloody and gruesome.
Esther didn’t shed any tears looking at the bloody liquid and clumps being put into a proper container and taken away. Her eyes were just soulless.
‘My dear child! Next time, remember to bring a heart with you. I’m so sorry, I didn’t want to do this! I’m so sorry!’
Esther’s face was pale, she got off the surgery table and her thin frame was rickety. She tried to calm her emotions, her abdomen hurt, and the pain was indescribable. She hoped to stay strong as she walked out, Philip was out there waiting for her. She had to be strong when facing Elijah at home as well. She shouldn’t cry, she should never cry!
Elijah ran like a mad man towards the surgery room. He saw Philip standing outside of the surgery room and his frigid face crumbled.
“I’m sorry, Elijah. This had to be done, I decided to bring Esther here!” Philip said regrettably as he looked at Elijah’s face which was filled with worry and misery.
Elijah’s face was distorted as he panted to catch his breath, after a few heaves he managed to suppress his hysterical roar, “Is Esther in there?”
“Yes, the surgery is still underway. She will be out soon, nobody else is allowed inside!” Philip glanced at Elijah. He lowered his head regrettably.
At the same time, the door to the surgery room opened. Esther walked out; her face was pale. Elijah was stunned, he stared blankly at her, “Esther…”
He ran over and grabbed her feeble body.
“Elijah, I’m fine! Philip’s pill is useless. He said that it should knock you out for at least a day!” She pursed her bleached lips, “Were they fake?”
Philip felt a twinge in his heart. He wanted to retort that Elijah was just superhuman, otherwise, why would Evan Gray choose him to be his successor? But he didn’t say anything.
“Esther, you silly girl!” Elijah’s pale face was still twisted. He caressed Esther’s warm cheeks with his trembling hands and looked at her dearly. This silly girl came to do the surgery on her own. She was worried that he would be sad.
“Elijah, I’m fine.” She could feel the fear in him through his trembling hands.
Elijah hugged her tightly as she said that, he bent over and hugged her, “Let’s go home!”
On the way home, he hugged her tightly in the back seat and buried his face around her neck. He hugged her ever so tightly, feeling her warmth. His heart that was filled with anxiety was finally beating normally again, it was beating, and a wave of different emotions filled his heart.
Esther could still feel him trembling and she was touched.
“Esther, I’m so sorry!” he growled indistinctively while his head was still buried in her neck. He sobbed slightly and Esther could feel something warm trickling down her neck. It was warm, and it meant that he had a heart.
“Elijah! We will have another one!” she said.
She reached out her hand and hugged Elijah’s tense body. She rubbed his back with her right hand, trying to comfort him.
He was supposed to comfort her, but she was comforting him instead. Elijah immediately snapped out of it and took deep breathes. He tried to calm himself down. He looked up and stared at her.
She reached out her hand again, this time to wipe away his tears.
“Does it hurt?” he asked dearly.
His head felt heavy after breakfast, but the sleeping pills only worked for a few hours until he woke up from a nightmare. After he woke up, Quinn told him that Esther went out with Philip. Elijah quickly told Eden McKay to drive him to the hospital. He saw Philip’s car when they arrived at the hospital and he immediately felt weak all over. He couldn’t feel pain nor anger, he just rushed as quickly as he could to the surgery room. But Esther was already done with the surgery by the time he got there.
He wasn’t by her side, yet she was still comforting him.
“It didn’t hurt at all!” said Esther softly as she shook her head, “The baby forgot to bring his heart with him. What a careless baby. I am responsible to send him to heaven, don’t you agree?”
“Esther…” he sobbed.
Esther realized that Elijah looked tough on the outside, but he was a sensitive person on the inside. She relaxed his frowning brows with her small hands, “We’ll have another, another baby. This one just wasn’t predestined to be with us!”
“No, I don’t want anymore. I don’t want you to be sad!” He couldn’t handle this a second time. He only had to handle the pain in his heart, but she would be hurt both mentally and physically. Not only that, but she was also suppressing her feelings and comforting him. How could he be so selfish?
“Silly, I want one!” she said, “I want another!”
“Esther!” Elijah was emotional, he shook his head. He wanted to go get ligation so that she wouldn’t suffer again.
She realized what he was thinking as he was giving out a blank stare. She reached out her hands and grabbed his neck, she then kissed him on his trembling lips. A soft and comforting kiss, “You said you’ll love me and will do what I say so that I will not be sad, right? I want a child, I will leave you if you get a ligation!”
He was taken aback, he looked at her with a complicated look in his eyes. How did she read his mind? How could she guess what he was thinking?
The car arrived at the villa.
Elijah carried Esther to the room and wrapped her up in the blanket. He sat next to her and grabbed her hands gently. He said to Quinn who was standing on the side, “Please make some soup. Make all the supplementary food you can!”
Philip went to buy more supplementary. He decided to go buy some as he watched Elijah carried Esther into the house.
Suddenly, he got a phone call. The voice coming from the call was hoarse, cold, and deep, “Howlden, come back and sign the divorce papers, please.”
He felt a surge of anger hearing that, “You wish!”
He hung up the phone and drove to Elijah’s villa.
Quinn was cooking something. Philip went upstairs. There was a gap between the door and the doorframe. He peeked through it and saw Elijah sitting next to the bed. He was looking at his sister gently and dearly. Philip felt assured.
This couple was really in love with each other, they were made for each other. He then saw Elijah lowered his head and kissed Esther on the lips lovingly. Philip was taken aback, he then turned around and went downstairs. His back looked lonely and sad!
Esther was lying down on the bed ever since she got home. Her abdomen hurt so much she was breaking out in cold sweat. The pain constantly reminded her that the baby was gone. She was worried about Elijah feeling sad and couldn’t rest well. She only fell asleep exhaustedly after a few hours, after repeatedly telling Elijah that she was strong, and she was fine.
Elijah went into the study room after she was sound asleep. He tried to relax his tensed face and sighed deeply. He stared at the sky as it slowly turned dark and the expression in his eyes was heavy and filled with sorrow. He wanted a child so badly, but now the child was gone. Was fate telling him to leave Esther?
This wasn’t the outcome he wanted! This was the worst outcome, but…
He once thought that if Esther had a baby, he wouldn’t have to do this. But now the baby was gone!
He closed his eyes desolately, he tried to hide the agony that was showing in his blood-shot eyes. Elijah slumped weakly into the chair. He covered his face with his hands, the decision he just made was tearing him apart.
No!
He couldn’t!
It was impossible!
He still wanted to fight with the last ounce of his strength, he couldn’t just give up like that.
He took out his phone, there was a lump in his throat. He didn’t know how to say it and he was afraid that he would show his current emotions. He never felt so complicated before. Esther sacrificed herself for him because she was afraid that he couldn’t handle it. So, he needed to handle this alone!
She was thinking about him, their souls were entwined. He was touched. His Esther, the woman he loved deeply. She was now lying on the bed, her face all blanched. He tightened his grip on the phone, but in the end, he didn’t make the call. He went back to the bedroom and sat next to her, protecting her.
In the next few days, Elijah never left Esther’s side. He was there for her 24/7, taking care of her.