Well, it was not like he did not have any feelings for her sister. He used to be obsessed with her sister. Yes, he said that he had been obsessed with her before. Her sister was so pretty and beautiful!
When she looked aside and saw Vincent was startled just now. At that moment, she suddenly felt an unknown anxiety in her heart. She was thinking, would Mr. White love her forever?
Maybe, in this world, no one could be held precious for a lifetime! When the thoughts came in, her eyes couldn’t help but turn dark.
Arthur turned his eyes around, there was a sense of heartache flashing through his peach liked eyes. Did she care about the tone that Vincent used when talking to Macey?
So gentle!
Just like how upset he was at this moment to see that she stood beside Vincent instead of himself.
“I, will not accept your help, I’m sorry. Please leave!” Macey walked into the room and slammed the door.
Arthur pursed up his lips and said, “You guys should leave now. Macey need some time, I will talk with her. She’s here with me, please don’t worry!”
Leila felt so grateful for Arthur, she looked directly at him and thanked him sincerely, “Thank you, Arthur!”
“You are welcome! Aren’t we friends?” Arthur’s words successfully made Vincent frown. “Alright, let’s go, it’s almost dawn, I want to get some sleep! I’d like to take a half day leave tomorrow, please approve my leave, boss!”
Vincent sounded cold with some sense of dullness, “I’ll leave her to you then!”
“Understand!”
Leila was quietly held by Vincent to the upstairs.
She felt that she stole her happiness from somewhere, it was not honorable. She was annoyed, guilty, and even looked down on herself. Within a few minutes, her struggled eyes made Vincent felt sorry for her.
He held her hand and made it into a fist. He used his big palm to hold hers, “Lexi, don’t think too much. Let’s give her some time, she’s way stronger than I think, she will be fine.”
“I’m fine!” Leila said in a lower tone. “Thanks to Arthur, if not we will keep worrying about her. We can temporarily stop worrying since my sister is with him. The rest of the things will have to take some time!”
Vincent narrowed his eyes and saw how grateful she was at Arthur. He was inexplicably upset as he looked at her. Then he gently lifted her chin as his lips lightly touched hers. It was very gentle. “Are you so thankful for Arthur?”
“Yes! Because he has been secretly helping me and never asks for anything as a return. He’s just helping me quietly! He’s a good man!”
“It’s the scariest if there’s no purpose. Having no purpose means that he has the biggest purpose!” Vincent disapproved!
Leila looked at him seriously and did not like what he just said. “Mr. White, why do I suddenly feel insecure today? It feels like we have cleared all the doubts and yet we can’t be together?”
“Why do you think like this?” Vincent was startled.
“Because I’m not sure if you would love me forever!” Leila whispered as she looked at him.
Vincent frowned, “I just want you, Lexi. Just you!”
He said in a low tone, Leila felt that his hands were shaking, “I want you.”
He moved his lips against her cheeks and stared into her eyes. Her eyelashes were half falling and her eyes were moist. “Tell me, you will never belong to another man, tell me!”
“I don’t have to tell you.” She replied gently, “Don’t you know how I feel?”
“I know how you feel, yes! I know!” He seemed like comforting himself. “Why do you feel insecure?”
“I’m afraid of the fate. There are many times that we cannot control our destiny.” Leila murmured with a faintly discernable emotion.
Vincent hugged her tightly and his lips were touched on hers. “Never, I will never let the fate to control my life.”
She was moved and raised her head. Her tears slid from the corner of her eyes.
“You’re crying again.” He whispered as he carried her up and walked towards his room. He opened the door and went in then closed the door.
“Don’t turn on the lights!” She did not want him to see the restlessness and vulnerability in her eyes.
He leaned over to kiss her lips. “Oh silly, you’re so happy, that’s why you always worry about gains and losses!”
“Yes! I know! Do you really want me for the rest of your life?” She asked him gently and carefully, and she then realized that she was eager to know his answer at this moment.
Vincent frowned and his expression became more intense. “All my life, I just want you! Certainly and definitely! No one can snatch you away from me, you’re my private property! Just belong to me only!”
So, it turned out that he was treating her as his private property. He did not allow anyone to violate his property… This thought made her heart literally sink. She felt some sourness as if there was half of a lemon putting inside her mouth.
Leila’s eyelashes trembled a little, there was a sense of helplessness in her gentle voice. “Just a property?”
“Of course!” Vincent seemed like he did not notice about her tone at all.
If she was a property, she may be thrown away someday. Because no one would use a single thing for the rest of their lives.
“Don’t turn yourself like a pathetic wife, I’ll feel bad for you.” He narrowed his eyes, his tall figure leaned against her thin waist, he was breathing warmly against her cold cheeks. There was a sense of ticklish and flickering on her skin and even her whole body started to become numb. “You’re my property, my lover! My forever!”
“Lover?” She was startled. Her cheek was blushing in the darkness. She pursed her red lips and her shyness was more than enough to tease any man.
“I’m so done, Mr. White. I’m always worried about gains and losses. I’m worried that my happiness is just a dream. When I wake up, everything is gone! I’m sorry, I do hate the way I am! I really do! I feel like I have become more narrow-minded, I don’t like myself being like this! But I really do think like this in my heart, I’m jealous whenever you are kind to my sister. But when you treat her badly, I’m not happy either! I’m such a hypocrite! I’ve always been. My mother robbed my aunt’s husband and I also robbed my sister’s boyfriend. In my whole life, I might not be able to raise my head because of this matter!”
“Silly, you’re such a silly girl. Lexi, how is that a dream? I want you, I love you.” While he was talking, his flaming eyes were stuck onto her delicate face which burned every single inch of her skin. “You do not rob from Macey. I just don’t love her. Can we stop talking about the pasts anymore?”
In the darkness, their sparkling eyes were staring at each other.
She was stunned and she could hardly breathe. She was too familiar with this kind of gaze. Every time when he was being lustful, he would have this expression.
“Sorry, I shouldn’t think too much. It’s my fault!” Leila lowered her head and sighed gently. She deeply blamed herself, how did she become such narrow-minded? How did she become so careful? She hated the way she is! It was not cool and she can’t let it go at all. Even if it was just a small thing, she would care about it to death.
Because she could hardly believe it, every time he looked at her, she just felt unbelievable. She felt more and more like a dream. Her excitement, nervousness, insomnia, and her heart palpitation… she never had this kind of feelings before.
At that time, she had a crush on him. She just felt hurt inside because having a crush was like a sword turning back and forth at herself. I love you, but it was just about myself!
But, when love became something between two persons, she found out that it was tiring! She became selfish, her domination became stronger.
The worry about gains and losses made her afraid to face herself and Vincent. She was worried that he might regret in the future. Therefore, after they cleared all the doubts, she became abnormal.
Sometimes she could be sharp, sometimes she could be upset inexplicably and sometimes even happy like a bird flying in the clouds. Sometimes, she could be as quiet as the small pebble lying on the side of the riverbed.
She became extremely sensitive and extremely sharp. “Mr. White, I’m really afraid, I’m afraid that you won’t love me forever, I’m afraid…”
Vincent finally could not stand anymore and grabbed Leila’s arm and shouted. “Lexi, please keep your tensions away! Life’s short. Do you want to live in the life of worrying about gains and losses for the rest of your life? Or do you want to live a life without any worries? Or live a good quality life?”
“I know! I’m wrong!” She apologized and felt annoyed. “I just want to be with you and be happy always!”
But could she be happy?
“Lexi, we’re going to spend our lives together for a long time. I hope that there’s only happiness in our lives without any worries. For our marriage, we have struggled and fought together and reached where we are today. Can… I ask you for a favor?”
“Yes!” She nodded while feeling very insecure.
“Don’t simply think about anything, or even give a hint!” He said it sincerely, steadily in a low voice. “The past is all in the past, we could only look forward for the future. Let us use our happiest feeling to accept the future, is that okay? Can you stop being like this, you know that if you continue being like this, it’s not going to be easy for you and me! Lexi, I like what you told me in HJ Hotel tonight. You said that everything will be alright, you will compensate me! So can you stop being like this? I can’t stand it if you keep worrying about gains and losses. One day, I might get disappointed and until that time, we might even hate each other!”
“Mr. White!” She jumped into his arms and immediately hugged him tightly. She hid her cheek inside his shirt in front of his chest. “Sorry, sorry! I think I do need to see a psychiatrist! Mr. White, I know that I’m wrong!”
“Just relax! Lexi, just relax!” He suddenly turned on the light.
He saw the panic in her eyes. He held her face and looked into her eyes. He said, “Lexi, tell me. At this moment, what do you see in my eyes?”
She looked into his eyes. He looked calm and steady all this while but only when he was in love, he would show his craziness for her.
Leila looked into that pair of eyes, in that moment, there were passion that was deep enough, regrets and hesitations along with some nervousness and worries.
She felt like her heart was rippling. She was blushed from her cheeks to the bottom of her ears. She tried to move her face away to avoid his scorching hot and sincere gaze. But he stopped and pulled her face and looked at her even more affectionately.
Although they had intimate relationship before, she was still shy like a virgin, unlike Vincent who handled like a butcher’s cleaver with ease.
“Say it! What do you see?”
She saw the true feelings and the deep affection.
She was too mean! She even felt insecure and doubted his feelings towards her. Her nose felt a little sour. She swallowed her tears and bit her lips. “Love!”
“That’s right!” He breathed out. “You have to know that a lifetime is a long time, there’s a long way for us to go through. You must believe in me, even if I can’t guarantee that I would love you for a lifetime. But you should believe that we are so in love at this moment. And can you guarantee that you would only love me for the rest of your life? Didn’t you also divorce just because you love me? Lexi, there are so many unpredictable moments in our lives. Can we just cherish our days together! Don’t be like Pippa, who likes to waste time on insignificant problems!”