Zi Ge didn’t immediately back away anymore, she just lowered her voice and spoke softly in a voice that only she and Ke Hengjun could hear, “Hengjun, can you help me?”
“What?” Ko Hengjun asked in surprise.
“Shhh!” Zi Ge averted her eyes to go, no longer looking at Lan Yu Feng, but pleaded with Ke Heng Jun, “Don’t ask anything, don’t say anything, just cooperate with me, okay?”
“Good.” He, without even a hint of hesitation. There was never anything she asked herself to do that he couldn’t accomplish for her.
Ziggy laughed a little before slowly releasing Ke Hengjun.
Turning around, Ke Hengjun also saw Lan Yu Feng. Those pensive eyes, staring at them, the cold light under his eyes, unusually obvious.
“Awake?” Lan Yu Feng opened his mouth first, his eyes slowly falling towards Zi Ge. The sharpness from just now had faded, and his face was much softer.
Don’t hold back …
Menzie Ge, no more shedding …
Zige admonished herself over and over in her mind, reminding herself, her whitened fingers curled at her side, her fingertips almost pinched into her flesh.
“Uh-huh. I’m well enough now to want to be discharged early.” Ziggy tried very, very hard to get the words to come out flat.
Lan Yu Feng looked at her, and then, after a half-second pause, he said, “Yes, there are servants at home to take care of you. I’ll have Yan Nan …”
“No need!” Zige suddenly interrupted, and he wrinkled his eyebrows, looking at her.
“I’m not staying in Moscow with you guys, I’m going back home with Hengjun, we’ve already discussed it.”
That’s good!
She and herself, are ‘you guys’!
She and Ko Hang-jun, but ‘we’!
What a harsh four-letter word! And what a clear distinction between the four words, too!
Lan Yu Feng’s hands, tightly clasped on the armrests of the wheelchair, his thin lips pursed into a straight line.
“Give me a reason.” It took a long time to squeeze those six words from his lips.
Why should she go with Ko Hang-jun when he comes?
Ke Hengjun also looked sideways at Zige, as if asking her why.
Zige’s heart, vaguely trembled. Hand reached over, gently pull Ke Hengjun’s hand. That cold touch, let Ke Hengjun slightly stunned for a moment, quickly understand the meaning of her so-called cooperation, finger hook, then took the initiative to wrap her hand.
Obviously feeling Lan Yu Feng’s increasingly cold and sharp line of sight.
“I heard Yannan say that you recovered your memory, congratulations in advance …” She heard her voice trembling, as if it had been blown by the wind, broken and unbearable.
“This time, I’m here because … you got your memory loss because of me, so I’m obligated to help you …”
“Righteousness, service?” He practically gritted his teeth, his eyes seeming to nail into her body and pierce her heart.
“Yes, obligatory.” She smiled, repeating those two words. Raising the hand held by Ke Hengjun, “Now that my fiancé has come to take me away, I have no reason to stay …”
“Meng Zige!” Lan Yu Feng bellowed, veins faintly jumping on the backs of his hands.
That sound, echoing in the ward, brought the atmosphere of the entire ward down to its lowest point in an instant. It was so oppressive that one could not breathe.
Zi Ge soured her nose, but had to continue, “After all we’ve been through between us, we … don’t even have to force each other to be together again …”
He narrowed his eyes, dark colors running through those deep pupils.
“Honestly, can you, who now remembers everything, really discard or forget all those unshared hatreds of the past?”
Lan Yu Feng inhaled deep sudden tightness, his fingers stiffened.
“At night, can you stop having nightmares? Can you be truly honest with me, with my sister, with Zhuo Zhenbang?”
“You shut up!” Lan Yu Feng suddenly cut her off with a loud shout.
He’s trying … He’s also trying to put all that past stuff behind him …
But why is she pushing herself like this now? To dredge up all the things that he had gone through so much trouble to bury deep in his heart, all of them?
He wanted to marry her just like that, even if he was tormented by nightmares in the middle of the night, even if he couldn’t face his parents in the future, he wanted to do it this time, against all odds …
“You can’t do the real letting go. So there’s no need to force yourself like this and make yourself so miserable …” His reaction, already said it all. Zige laughed a little, tears almost coming to her eyes.
Why should they be bitterly attached if all they can do together is give him guilt and pain?
Maybe …
Really, being with Su Xi would in turn make it much easier for him.
At least …
No need to carry those heavy burdens and shackles that you have to carry with her.
“You can’t let go, just like I can’t let go …” Zi Ge took a deep breath and said words that didn’t mean anything, “I still remember all the times you used me, cheated on me, all of it! …”
She pointed to her chest, her fingers trembling, her drooping eyelashes also trembling, “I’m sorry … I’m very petty, I can’t forget that you hugged Little Douzi, I can’t forget the racy photos you took, I can’t forget all the things that you’ve been doing with every single thing in mind … Step by step you, let me feel fear …”
Fear …
She actually said ‘fear’?
Two words, like a sharp blade, stabbed through his heart.
Even the veins, as if they were punctured …
So stupid …
So funny …
He thought that if only he could force himself to give up and forget, all his problems would be solved …
But I don’t want to …
It turns out that the one who can’t forget and can’t let go is her …
It’s her …
“You are right …” He finally, slowly opened his mouth. Sitting in his wheelchair, he tilted his head slightly to look at Zi Ge, and the hatred that erupted from those deep eyes made Zi Ge take a step backwards in shock. Ke Hengjun was startled and stabilized her.
Only to hear Lan Yu Feng speak with a cold smile, ”It was me who was too stupid, actually once wanted to force myself to give up the past for you, forgetting the undying hatred between us. Yes, just like you said, why bother suffering like this? We … should not have been entangled … in the first place.”
“You go away! Don’t … appear in front of me again in the future!”
The words, falling.
He no longer even glanced at Zige, pushed his wheelchair, turned and left.
Back, cruel, determined.
Yan Nan stared dumbfounded at this scene, still confused until now.
Did he get something wrong?
Shouldn’t the next thing be to prepare for the wedding when the diamond ring has been purchased?
As soon as Lan Yu Feng left, Zi Ge almost immediately took a step forward to follow him, seemingly like she wanted to catch up. However, her footsteps stumbled and eventually stopped again.
Standing there dumbfounded, his eyes misted over, tears swirling, but always holding back from falling.
It’s her choice …
Take this step and it can never be changed …
“Sir.” Yan Nan sprinted out after him, looking at the smudge of back and calling out worriedly.
“Don’t say anything!” Lan Yu Feng blocked Yan Nan with a single sentence, reaching out to touch that prepared diamond ring from his chest. Barely even a moment’s pause in the air, tracing a beautifully shimmering arc, with a ‘ding dong’ crunch, the ring was tossed into the trash can with precision.
From the beginning, to the end …
His eyes, none of them, had ever shifted.
As if …
Just like that, decisively, all the past, all together.
The ring … was, however, only laughing at his ridiculousness.
Yan Nan watched in surprise as the gentleman did not look back, and it was only after a while, when his figure had completely disappeared, that Yan Nan bent down and rummaged through the garbage can to pull out the ring.
He wanted …
Maybe, someday, they’ll be able to use it after all.
Su Xi had a long, long dream.
In her dream, she was locked in a dark warehouse. She didn’t know what was closing in on her, but she inexplicably felt dangerous and scared.
She kept banging on the door, trying to escape from this darkness. But, to her horror, she realized she had no hands!
The right arm, empty and hideous, waved in the air.
She sucked in her breath in fear and raised her left arm, but it, too, was broken …
And then …
The door of the warehouse was suddenly pushed open from the outside, and she thought she saw hope, but it was a fierce devil who forced his way …
“Sue Hei! Su Xi, wake up!” Su Chen worriedly pushed her.
Like being yanked violently out of a misplaced loss of control, Su Xi woke up in a flash, jaws dropping, a cold sweat surfacing on her back.
She covered her chest and gasped violently, her pale lips trembled, and she kept murmuring, “Brother … brother … save me … I am so afraid! ”
Su Chen had never seen such a wretched Su Xi, his eyes couldn’t help but cover with a layer of mist. Bending his head, he wrapped Su Xi in a heartbreaking embrace, “Brother in. Don’t be afraid, it was just a nightmare … Don’t be afraid …”
Being held by Su Chen, Su Xi suddenly bawled, “Where is brother … Yu Feng? Where is he? I want to see him …”
She’s so upset … so upset …
Why wasn’t he even there in that darkness?
“I am.” Lan Yu Feng sat quietly watching the embracing siblings with a condensed expression.
When Su Xi saw him, he struggled to break away from Su Chen’s arms. Su Chen notices it and moves his body slightly, moving away some. Su Xi then with great difficulty deflected his eyes to look at Lan Yu Feng, and the tears fell from his eyes all of a sudden, shattering on the pillow.
“Brother Yu Feng … you will marry me, won’t you? You’re not coaxing me? Right?”
In her eyes, the panic was still thick.
Lan Yu Feng pursed his thin lips and did not reply. Su Chen carried Su Xi on his back and made a begging look towards Lan Yu Feng, but Lan Yu Feng didn’t say anything back again, he just brought a cup of water and pushed the wheelchair with one hand to the side of the bed, “Drink some water before you talk.”
His voice was dark, his movements slow, his eyes so somber they looked like they were covered in gray.
Marry Su Xi?
Sorry …
He can’t do it.
No longer because of Meng Zige, only because … he did not want to apologize to Su Xi this emotion.
“Brother Yu Feng, will you take care of me?” Su Xi looked at him and asked again.
Lan Yu Feng bent his head, looked back at her, and did not open his mouth. She smiled bitterly, and another tear slipped from the corner of her eye, “Is it … that now that my heart has healed, you’ll never be kind to me again, and won’t take care of me?”
Inside, she was filled with unease.
Especially … after she broke her arm, the kind of self loathing in her heart made her terrified all day long.
Lan Yu Feng drew a tissue and wiped away the tears from her eyes. He looked at her calmly and replied flatly, “I will take care of you. Just like you’ve taken care of me in these past half a year.”
But, it’s only, only because of indebtedness, because of gratitude, because of responsibility …
And unadulterated, love …
Hearing this promise, Su Xi finally rippled a smile. With great difficulty, great difficulty, she raised her left hand and held his hand.
His fingertips, so cool they had no temperature.
Instead, she insisted on holding him very, very tightly.
“Brother Yu Feng, your words, I remember … I will want you, to take care of me for the rest of my life …”
Listening to her sister’s words, Su Chen brushed her face away, not knowing what to say for a moment.