“I don’t even … have the qualifications … to love him anymore …” She drifted her eyes towards Lan Yu Feng in despair, making a great hard, very hard to move her right arm. How she wanted … to still be able to reach out, even if it was just to touch the man she had loved for so many years …
But …
Now ….
Right arm, empty …
All that’s left is, ugly, hideous, bare a bowl-sized scar …
Her wings, broken by … …
Lan Yu Feng came closer and painfully clasped her left hand, “Su Xi, listen well … you are the most qualified to love me! So don’t think nonsense, just have a good surgery.”
“Most qualified …” she murmured brokenly, shaking her head, tears falling like rain, “If most qualified, why won’t you love me? Not even a little love … has ever been shared with me …”
Lan Yu Feng’s lips, moved.
He was tempted to say …
Love, once given to one person, cannot be shared even a little bit with others.
As if knowing what he wanted to say, Su Chen eagerly took over, “I’ll push you into the operating room first. Be good, we’ll discuss these issues after the surgery!”
“No! I don’t want it!” Su Xi grabbed Su Chen and refused to let go. “I don’t want another operation …”
“Are you crazy? You’ll die if you don’t operate!”
“I’m not afraid to die …”
“Su Xi, do you believe I’ll whip you?!” Su Chen was furious, even hating Su Xi. How could she say such cruel and determined words? She wasn’t afraid of death, but he was afraid … of his parents as well …
Su Xi slowly closed her eyes, “I will never have surgery …”
“How about it, you … are willing to live?” Lan Yu Feng opened his mouth.
“Yes, you say! Whatever we can do, we’ll do it for you! How about this before you’re willing to live!” Su Chen was emotional.
Eyelashes fluttering, Su Xi opened her eyes. The line of sight was instead looking towards Lan Yu Feng, “Are you willing to do it for me as well?”
“You first.”
“Marry me.”
“…” two words, Lan Yu Feng was silent, and so was Su Chen.
“Su Xi …” It was only after a long time that Su Chen finally spoke.
“You’re all liars!” Su Chen sneered, “What do you mean I’m the most qualified to love you? What is it again that I am the best candidate for a wife? All are assholes! All liars!”
Her emotions became intense and she frantically used her left hand to scratch the freshly stitched wound on her body. As if she didn’t know pain, extreme self-mutilation and self-abuse.
“You stop! You stop!” Su Chen felt like his heart was going to stop, holding Su Xi’s hand down for dear life, his breath coming in heavier breaths than one, “I promise you! Feng also promises you! We all promise you! Is that enough?”
Su Xi did not speak, but gasped heavily and looked at Lan Yu Feng in despair. Chest, began to cramp, as if the next second to die in the past.
This time, Ziggy woke up quickly.
Seeing Suje, she felt like she was dreaming.
“Not a dream, not a dream.” Su Jie said repeatedly, dabbing the water with a waiver and dripping it on her lips, “I came here with Su Chen, look, I didn’t even have time to take off my nurse’s outfit.”
“The child … is gone …” For a long time, Zi Ge only muttered these four words from his lips.
Su Jie’s eyes reddened and she sniffled, holding back the sourness before saying, “It’s good that you’re fine. There will be children in the future. Besides, don’t you already have little beans? It’s fine …”
Zige barely picked her lips, “Yes, it’s fine … It’ll be fine soon …”
“By the way, where’s Su Xi? Is she okay?”
Suje shook her head, “Having an amputation … is not going well.”
Zi Ge’s heart mourned and she immediately wanted to get up from the bed. Su Jie pressed her down, “What are you doing? We’re in the middle of an injection, don’t move!”
“I’m going to see her.”
“The scene is so depressing that you don’t see that you want to see it.”
Zi Ge looked at Su Jie, “She was trying to save me … from becoming like this.”
Suje was shaken and a little taken back.
“She … saved you?”
“If it hadn’t been for her … now lying there alive or dead or amputated it would have been me …”
Su Jie only felt saddened as she listened. Zige had already pulled the needle out quickly, and Su Jie had no choice but to take the sterilized patch and put it on her wound before helping her up. “Be careful.”
As Zige let Su Jie help her around the corner of the emergency room, she only heard Su Chen’s impatient and unsettling voice come through.
“Feng! What do you have to say but say it quickly! Don’t dawdle! Su Xi can’t wait!”
Zi Ge and Su Jie exchanged glances and subconsciously stopped in their tracks.
Looking over from afar, he only saw Lan Yu Feng sitting in a wheelchair with a somber expression. He first lifted his eyes and glanced at Su Chen with a gloomy expression before he slowly opened his mouth in a deep voice: “Good! As long as you accept the surgery, I promise you everything.”
“Including … marrying me?” Su Xi asked incredulously.
“Yes, including, marrying you!” He almost never went back on his word, but, with a lie like today’s, he had to say it.
He had spoken to Ziggy …
The truth is often much harder to swallow than a well-intentioned lie.
Ziggy’s entire body froze.
As if she couldn’t believe it, she stared blankly at Suje beside her.
And Suje was dumbfounded there.
So says …
She heard right …
What he just said … is the words to marry Su Xi?
Before his eyes, a dizziness.
Soojie held her up sharply, but couldn’t stop her sliding body …
The heart, too, follows, falling inch by inch …
Like it was going to fall all the way to the valley abyss and shatter into powder.
A marriage contract, save Su Xi a life, but also return the grace she owes him …
That’s nice …
Really, there’s nothing wrong with …
When Zige woke up again, she was in a cold sweat again, and her whole body looked as if she had just climbed out of an ice cellar.
Under the sheets, she quietly covered her flat belly. The pain was churning there again. From head to toe, from every piece of skin in her body, to every nerve, it screamed pain …
On his pale cheeks, there was only cold sweat, not tears.
“Zige … drinking water? I’ll pour you some water!” Su Jie’s voice, ringing in the ears.
The screening room, brilliantly lit and colorful.
“Ziggy, I want to marry you.”
His words are still ringing in our ears …
Outside the operating room, the atmosphere is oppressive and the lights pale.
“Good! I’ll promise you anything as long as you undergo the surgery!”
“Including … marrying me?”
“Yes, including, marrying you!”
Each one, so clear and powerful.
It made her want to self-congratulate and lie to herself that it was a delusion, and it wasn’t even possible.
Is she dead? He must have stabbed her alive. But why did it still hurt?
“Ziggy, you cry when you’re sad. OK? Don’t. …”
Ziggy felt herself laughing, and her speaking voice contained a smile, “I’m not sad … Suje, I’m not sad at all … really … ”
“I’m going to find him! I’m going to get it straight with him! On what grounds? On what basis did he do this to you? What you’re suffering now is not a single bit less than Su Xi!” Xi Su Jie screamed, calling out for her. This silly, stupid woman, in this relationship, only gets hurt!
Only injuries!
“No … Sujie, don’t …” Zige seemed to be pulling on Sujie’s sleeve with his last ounce of strength, his hands shaking all the time. “This is his choice … I don’t want to question or force, this is what he chose!”
He chose to marry Su Xi.
If she is bitter or shrew-like in her questioning, what is the point of asking for it?
“But … don’t you want a word of explanation?”
Account for it?
What’s the point of having an explanation? Is it going to change the situation as it is today?
She had no words, just shook her head again.
The door, suddenly, was pushed open by Yan Nan. “Ms. Meng, the water has been called over, it’s time to take your medicine.”
Yan Nan walked in and froze for a moment when he saw her bare arm and looked at Su Jie, “Why did you pull out the needle again?”
Sujie hated that she couldn’t say all the words she had just said in her head to Yan Nan, but touching Sujie’s pleading eyes, she held back.
“It’s okay, I’ve got the nurse coming over.”
“That’s good.” Yan Nan nodded and put the hot water aside before saying, “Since Miss Meng has woken up, I’ll go find Mister to come over.”
“No need!” Ziggy called him back.
“Su Xi is still alive or dead, let him guard there …”
Yan Nan thought for a moment, nodded, and sighed, “Miss Su is also quite difficult.”
Zige bit her lip and silently turned her face away.
“By the way, there’s something that I never got to tell you, Miss Meng, that Mr. has regained his memory.”
Ziggy was stunned.
“He … regained his memory?”
No wonder …
No wonder he’s willing to marry Su Xi …
It’s not the same …
Everything, all over again …
Between them, that gulf that can’t be crossed …
Forever, Can’t Cross Over …
“Zige, are you okay?” Sujie looked at her pale face worriedly.
“… It’s okay …” Ziggy struggled to find her voice, “Good thing… . it’s a good thing …”
“Ms. Meng?” Yan Nan looked at her worriedly.
She laughed.
Surprisingly, there was not much mourning in my heart, nor was there much elation.
“Please go out, I am tired, I want to rest …” Zi Ge struggled to finish this sentence, then closed his eyes, and did not say another extra word.
Yan Nan glanced at him and quietly retreated.
As Su Chen pushed Su Xi into the operating room, he looked heavily at Lan Yu Feng, “Thanks!”
Lan Yu Feng pursed his lips and said nothing, just sitting outside the operating room.
Looking at Su Chen pushing Su Xi in, his mind couldn’t help but recall the first 10 minutes.
10 minutes ago.
Su Xi’s request caused both men to fall silent.
Eventually, Su Chen said, “Feng, let’s talk alone, can we?”
“Yes.” It wasn’t that he didn’t know what he wanted to say, he still agreed without hesitation.
This sister, how important was she to Su Chen. As a brother, he couldn’t be clearer.
In the private space where the two existed, Su Chen fought to smoke a cigarette, the smoke lingering in front of his eyes, his eyes lined with gray.
“This is a hospital.” Lan Yu Feng calmly reminded him.
Su Chen pressed out the cigarette, but his hand was still pinching the cigarette butt that fell in the ashtray. Because he used a lot of force, his hand, was constantly shaking.
For a long time … seems to have finally organized a complete language, raised his eyes and looked at Lan Yu Feng, his tears were all pleading, “Help me promise Su Xi! Help me save her life! She has suffered enough!”
With such a request, Lan Yu Feng wasn’t even a little surprised.
“I won’t promise.”
“Damn it! She’s going to die! You know her nature!”
“I don’t love her.” His manner, still calm.
“I don’t need you to really marry her, I just need you to coax her. She is very good at lying, she will believe whatever you say …” Su Chen’s emotions were a bit agitated, “She loves you so much, she will be satisfied if you coax her …”
“I don’t want to lie to her.”