“No.” He had trouble falling asleep, and when he did, he was haunted by nightmares. The feeling of having someone missing from his side was much harder to endure than he thought it would be.
“Ms. Meng has arrived home.” Yan Nan reported promptly.
Lan Yu Feng held down his knees and did not make a sound. And then, Yan Nan’s voice once again came from over there, “Ms. Meng’s things have been delivered to her, she wants to see you. And …”
Yan Nan paused for a moment before speaking again, his tone heavier, “She … doesn t sound good.”
On the knee, it hurts like a sharp prick. Lan Yu Feng did not speak, holding the cell phone, lifted the covers and stood up from the bed, standing in the window with bare feet.
The darkness that covered the sky, draped in from outside, pulled his lonely shadow longer and longer. He closed his eyes, hiding the rich bitterness under his eyes, and only after a long time did he spit out a deep sentence, “I know.”
In the next room, there was the sudden sound of a child crying.
He braced himself in pain, barefoot, and walked out of the room.
Let the pain in your knees, fester and corrode …
He thought that this could slightly dilute the sharp pain in his heart, but … nothing, the way …
The child cried, a little louder. He walked in such a hurry that his footsteps were unsteady and he stumbled, almost falling. It was only by haphazardly clasping his large palms against the cold wall that he narrowly stabilized himself.
By the time he got to his room, Little Bean was in tears.
Lan Yu Feng stood silently in the doorway of the room, watching him.
“Why are you crying?”
“Daddy …,” choked the child with some fearful look, barely collecting his sobs, his little hands wiping away his tears carelessly.
Lan Yu Feng didn’t walk in, he just leaned against the door frame, “Having a nightmare?”
“I … miss Mommy.”
His eyes sank for a few moments and he pursed his lips before speaking again, “Daddy said that Mommy would have her own life in the future.”
It was a phrase that he had repeated countless times over the past few days.
Both in your heart and on your lips …
Whether you tell your kids or yourself …
“But I’m Mommy’s son, Mommy won’t not want me …” Little Bean didn’t like to hear Daddy say that “Mommy said that the three of us would be together for the rest of our lives!!!”
A lifetime …
Lan Yu Feng’s tall body shook fiercely. These three words had long been a luxury for him.
“Sleep well and stop paranoid about things that are simply impossible!” He warned his son in a cold voice.
Obviously, the little bean’s fragile heart, was hurt by daddy’s words. Innocent big eyes, another red circle, floating a few points of rebellion to, “I hate daddy, hate daddy! It must be you who bullied mommy, mommy walked away and didn’t want Little Douzi! Daddy is the worst, daddy is a big bad man, so mommy won’t want daddy anymore!”
The child’s words made his heart tremble hard. In the next instant, the emotion was suddenly unstoppable.
“Yes, your mommy doesn’t want your daddy and she doesn’t want you!” He growled out in a manic and suppressed whisper. Walking over, he roughly shoved the terrified child under the covers with one hand. Eyes, cold to the bone, “Go to sleep immediately! Don’t even think for a second in this life that you’ll ever have a complete family, me and her will never be able to! Do you hear me clearly? It’s never!!!”
The last sentence is both a message to your children and a … admonition to yourself …
Don’t Think Twice …
All the entanglements, really, end here … …
No matter how much it hurts, no matter how much it hurts …
The child was shaken.
Even the tears were so frightened that they forgot to flow, only cupping the covers and staring timidly into the storm-gathered eyes.
“Tian! Brother Yu Feng, what are you doing?” A terrified voice came from the doorway, and Su Xi immediately rushed in, sitting on the bed and shielding the frightened Little Douzi in her arms.
The sudden voice made his sanity return abruptly.
Looking at the child lying on Su Xi’s chest and crying in pain, his heart choked, and a strong sense of guilt kept rising.
Damn it!
What the hell did he do?
To actually take out those bitterly repressed emotions on an innocent child!
“Little Douzi is just a child, just say it nicely, what’s the matter that you have to lose your temper with him like this?” Su Xi heartbreakingly stroked the child’s cheek, softly soothing him, “Don’t be afraid, there is Auntie Xi.”
Thin arms hugging Su Xi, the little bean was so aggrieved that she buried her head and cried straight. Wanted mommy, but, thinking of daddy’s reaction just now, now is not dare to say a word.
Lan Yu Feng sank his eyes to look at the child, then looked at Su Xi. After all, he just said, “Tonight, you sleep with the child.”
With that, and without another word, he gripped his cane, turned and walked slowly out of the room. Each step was as painful as if it had been stuck on a needle.
Since sending Little Douzi to France, he has been crying every day. It just so happened that Su Xi came over to shoot and asked to stay at his place, thinking that seeing her child might put him in a better mood, but …
Apparently not.
Some people have a place in the heart that no one can replace …
Sue’s house.
“Young master, there is a young lady outside looking for you.” The maid hurriedly ran in. Su Chen was eating breakfast, and when he heard it was a woman, he didn’t even raise his head and only said, “No time.”
“But the lady told me to tell you that her last name is Seat.”
Hearing the butler’s words, Su Chen’s dining movements suddenly stopped. Seat? Su Jie? Was it her? Was it possible?
Knowing that such a hope was very slim, yet, Su Chen couldn’t help but hope.
Almost immediately, he said to the butler, “Send her in.”
“Yes.” The butler acknowledged and immediately went out.
“Ms. Xi, please go this way.”
“Okay, thanks.”
The familiar voice came from outside, Su Chen froze for a moment. And then, reacting, he immediately picked up the cutlery and pretended to have the appearance of eating at ease.
Feeling the footsteps getting closer to him, he forced himself not to turn around.
“Young Master, Miss Xi has arrived.” The butler spoke respectfully.
The corners of his lips, which had already been raised in an inopportune manner, had to be forced down at this time. Pretending as if nothing had happened. Turning around, he saw Xi Sujie at a glance.
His heart swam, but he turned back and asked with a slight sneer, “Miss Xi, what is the purpose of suddenly appearing here?”
“Su Chen, I have something to ask you.”
Sojourner’s tone was so bad that if you listened closely, you could hear hidden anger.
Su Chen frowned slightly, putting down his knife and fork and glancing back at her before waving his hand at the housekeeper, “Go ahead and get busy with yours.”
“Yes, Young Master.”
The housekeeper answered, turned around and left. Su Chen elegantly wiped his lips, stood up, and took big steps towards the upstairs bedroom. Su Jie frowned slightly and followed closely.
In the bedroom, Su Chen took the pajamas off his body right off, revealing his robust and sexy body. Xi Sujie blushed and turned her back, “What are you doing?!”
Su Chen grunted, “Have you seen it fewer times?”
Generously naked, he walked into the locker room and smoothly picked a pair of pants to put on. Looking at his dashing and self-contained appearance, Su Jie lightly bit her lip, and the enormity of her heart quietly expanded.
This time of not seeing each other … he, it seems, is going well …
Su Chen raised his eyebrows, buttoning his shirt while tapping the dial on his wrist with a look of impatience, “You still have three minutes, I’ll leave if I don’t have anything to say.”
Sisu Jie froze.
He buttoned up and sidestepped with decided indifference, passing her to go out.
Attitude, cold and detached …
From start to finish, not even about to look at her.
“Su Chen!” As they brushed past each other, Su Jie suddenly reached out and pulled him in. The moment their skin met, the burning heat caused each other to be stunned. Su Chen’s footsteps, paused.
Turning sideways, he looked at her.
Her line of sight, and his met. Looking at the face that she had never forgotten, a circle of sadness floated under Su Jie’s eyes.
“Did you know about … Ziggy?”
Su Chen was stunned into silence for a moment.
It was obvious that the wrist, her hand, was gradually stiffening.
“You know all that?”
Her jaw dropped incredulously.
Su Chen looked into her eyes, unable to say the words to deceive her, “I know it all.”
“From the very beginning, you knew that Lan Yu Feng had been lying to Zi Ge? You were also clear that he was simply using her and toying with her?!” Xi Su Jie questioned sternly, her voice rising higher and higher despite her gradual agitation.
“Suje, calm down!”
Su Chen reached out to clasp her hand in place.
Instead, she jerked her hand back as if she’d been burned by fire, “Don’t you touch me!”
She shrieked in hurt and took a step back as if the man in front of her was a flooding beast.
The too intense reaction hurt Su Chen. Under his eyes, a trace of gloom crossed, he looked at Su Jie and smiled coldly, “So, you suddenly came to me just to ask me these questions that don’t relate to either of us?”
He thought …
Perhaps, she came to ask for peace; perhaps, she couldn’t help herself; perhaps …
Lots and lots of maybe’s, but, all together, no!
Yes, she was Xi Sujie, she had her pride, her self-respect, how could she willingly submit?
“These are irrelevant to us?” Su Jie laughed mockingly and looked at Su Chen angrily, “Zige is my best friend, you know that better than anyone else! How can you bear to watch her foolishly fall into a trap and never warn her? Su Chen, this behavior of yours, how is it any different compared to Lan Yu Feng? In my eyes, you’re just as shameful!”
Her eyes, her tone, were full of disappointment and hurt.
Knowing that Zi Ge is her best friend, he can be a cold shoulder from start to finish. Has he ever thought about her feelings?
“Xisu Jie, do you never seek me out just to argue with me! There are no more important things to talk about between us than these?!” Su Chen also got angry and roared low in a frantic manner, his voice dark and hoarse.
“No! Not ever! Not even in this lifetime!” She screamed angrily, looking at him in utter disappointment, her eyes brimming with tears.
Without waiting to say anything else, she turned around and was about to leave. His heart tightened, Su Chen jumped up almost immediately and reached out to pull her.
“Su Chen, let go!” She screamed, struggling desperately.
Su Chen also got annoyed and reached out to press her against the cabinet. Both eyes stared at her, ”Xi Sujie, you quarreled with me for her? What do you take me for? Have you ever put me in your heart? Meng Zige’s place in your heart is more important than mine, isn’t it?”
Su Jie sneered, ”Haven’t you gotten the point yet? Your behavior, it makes me displeased! Su Chen, I hate you, loathe you! Never want to see you again in this life!”
Her bite of disgust made Su Chen lose control on the spot.
Why does she always manage to put words, so easily, in such a desperate way? And …
Three times, four times.
Is it possible that in her heart, he really has no place at all? Do not want, immediately can be discarded as nothing?