Seeing her out-of-control look, Chen really can’t bear to tell the truth, but, there is no way to lie. Shaking her head, she sighed and said: “The phone still can’t be reached. But don’t worry, I’m still with you, aren’t I? I’ll go with you to see the attending doctor.”
Andrea Jones did not know what happened to her, tears suddenly fell down in big globs. She shook her head haphazardly, “I don’t want to see it … Sister Chen, let’s go back! I don’t want to see it!”
Sister Chen was shocked by her appearance and hurriedly hugged her, “What is going on? It’s all here, we’ve done all the tests, why don’t you look at it?”
She’s scared!
It’s really scary!
Without him, she is like a lonely boat, thrown in the turbulent sea, let the sea wind and waves destroy …
“Here, let me take a look. My daughter has given birth to two children, I have some experience.” Chen said, to pull the results from Andrea Jones’ hand. The results of the test were not only a good idea, but they were also a good idea for Andrea Jones, who tugged them tightly in fear.
However, even so, Sister Chen still saw it.
The uterus is not growing.
She remembered the numbers from the last results sheet, which were not too far off.
This is …
Sister Chen looked up at Andrea Jones, her eyes crossed a trace of pity. At that moment also did not say anything, grabbed her hand and pulled her towards the diagnostic room.
“I don’t want to go! Sister Chen, let’s go home, okay? I want to go home … I want to go to him …”
That sound, the sad prayer echoed in the hospital corridor. All eyes were turned towards them, and looking at the young pregnant mother’s tears, everyone knew for sure that it was not good, and they all cast pitying eyes.
Chen’s eyes burned. Since spending these few months with her, knowing the importance of this child to both of them. However, now …
“Good girl, Andrea, don’t be afraid! Let the doctor take a good look at the results!” She coaxed her like her own daughter, even calling her by her name.
That gentle voice reminded Andrea Jones of her mother. When she thought of her current situation, she felt lonely and sad.
Where is he?
At this moment, when he is needed most, where is he?
I was worried that she had no one to turn to, that she wouldn’t be able to take care of herself, so I brought her to his apartment? But now, when she really can’t take care of herself, where is that person?
She was almost escorted to the diagnostic room by Sister Chen and sat down.
However, the doctor’s words knocked her out of her mind, and her whole body was as dead as if she had passed away, and she could only sit there with her face ashen.
“The uterus was clearly not dilating and did not meet the criteria for a gestational cycle, and the baby’s heartbeat could no longer be heard.”
“… The fetus is dead.”
Dead?
Dead!
She cried and laughed. It should be herself who is dead! Chest seems to be drilled a huge hole, a hand reached in, in the continuous tugging … tearing …
“Miss Jones, it is recommended that you have an operation to remove the baby immediately! The baby surviving inside you will only cause a burden to you, and in serious cases it will cause hemorrhage, and then the situation will be serious.”
“No! My baby is fine, how can I take my baby?” She screamed up sternly, her eyes staring deadly at the doctor, as if she was like a swift beast in front of her, “Last time I had a checkup, I even heard the baby’s heartbeat with Neal Williams! Sister Chen, Sister Chen …”
Feeling the doctor’s helpless and compassionate eyes, she panicked and grabbed Chen standing aside, like grabbing a life-saving straw, she looked at Chen with tears and prayers, “Chen, you tell her, please tell the doctor … my child is fine and healthy. … Last time you also felt the fetal movement, did not you? Today I’m here for a screening! My baby is fine!”
Sister Chen painfully held the emotional her in her arms, “Andrea, you calm down …”
She can’t calm down! She can’t calm down!
“I don’t want to take him her! My child is fine … really!” Hugging Sister Chen, she bawled, the cry so desolate that the entire diagnostic room of patients and nurses sighed and sighed.
“You are still young, there will always be children in the future.” The doctor kindly advised, “Although having polycystic disease is relatively troublesome, but it is not impossible to cure it. Look, you got pregnant this time, didn’t you?”
She cried even louder, unable to contain her emotions.
Baby …
Is it because initially she let it slip that she didn’t want you, so … you got angry? Don’t want mommy anymore?
Sorry …
In fact, mom really loves to love you! Mommy apologizes, so … you come back OK? Come back to mommy’s tummy …
Coming out of the hospital, the whole person seemed to have gone through a huge catastrophe. The tears on his face, from the beginning to the end have not dried. Leaning against the window of the cab, still holding the phone firmly in his hand.
But …
It’s been two days.
The phone, which never rang.
Heart, so cold.
Same as your own body …
“Come to the hospital as soon as possible to get rid of the baby, the more you delay the more it will affect your body!” The doctor’s repeated reminders echoed in her mind.
Tears were forced out of her eyes again and in a moment covered her entire pale and frail cheeks.
The thought of getting rid of the baby didn’t give her the courage to sign that surgery sheet alone. She needed Neal Williams … needed him to give herself enough courage and hope …
Back to the apartment.
Sitting woodenly on the couch, his eyes stared laxly at a point. The hand rested on the small of his back, still unwilling to believe that the little thing there had stopped growing.
She’s been having recurring nightmares lately! So, now, it must be a dream too!
Wake up and you’ll be fine, won’t you?
However, she knew … this nightmare, she could never wake up …
Looking at the lonely back, Sister Chen quietly made a phone call, but, the other end is still the same cold mechanical voice. Sigh, poured a cup of hot water to her, thought about it, or said: “Drink a mouthful of water, warm up. In fact, as the doctor said, you are still so young, there is still a chance next time. Don’t think too much about it.”
“Is that so?” Weakly accepting the water, she asked softly and quietly, so uncertainly. The voice was so soft, as if it floated out from the abyss of hell. It was as if it would disappear at any moment.
Do they have a chance?
Why … does she feel a darkness in front of her at the moment, so that she cannot see a little hope? Is this destiny?
“Of course it is, Mr. Williams loves you so much, it must be heartbreaking to see you like this. You must cheer up!” Sister Chen patiently encouraged her.
She laughed a little, laughing so hard that tears came to her eyes.
“What’s the use of love?” The question is asked softly, confused and sad.
At their most painful and unbearable time, the one who claims to love them is completely missing, which has turned all love into a joke! It has become illusory, it has become pale!
Sister Chen let out a long sigh, “Mr. Williams must have been tripped up by something.”
“…” She said nothing more, only her fingers squeezed the cup tightly. The walls of the cup were obviously so hot, but it couldn’t warm any of the cells in her body.
So cold …
She was also eager to find some reason for him. But, what to do? Her heart is now so narrow and petty! The pain is too deep, she can’t do it!
Night, late.
The apartment was unusually quiet, as quiet as a pool of stagnant water.
Chen would have insisted on staying, Andrea Jones wanted to be left alone and let her go back.
She just leaned back on the sofa, like a fish washed up on the beach by the waves, without water, and became dying. The back of her hand was tightly covering her eyes, but she couldn’t suppress the tears seeping out of the corners of her eyes.
One after another, without breaking.
The doorbell, at this very moment, rang abruptly.
She didn’t move.
It rang again. One at a time, extremely patient and refusing to interrupt.
Only then did she drag her heavy body up and brace herself to get up from the sofa. The moment she pulled open the door and saw the person outside the door, her distant thoughts came back to her at once and she was suddenly much more awake. Subconsciously alert to protect their lower abdomen, as if afraid of being hurt, but …
When my hand touched the bulge, I realized that my action at the moment was ridiculous to the extreme.
The child is no longer there!
It wasn’t someone else who hurt her, it was herself! It was she who was not careful enough, it was she who was not competent enough, it was she who killed her own child with her own hands!
“You’re … you’re pregnant?” Christina Sanchez, outside the door, was shocked to see Andrea Jones’ bulging baby bump.
Penny Brown only told her that Andrea Jones and Neal Williams were living together, but not that she was pregnant.
Andrea Jones didn’t make a sound, and she didn’t even know how to answer. It was pregnant, but, now the baby …
The soreness welled up again at the tip of her nose, and just as she was about to speak, Christina Sanchez opened her mouth again, “You really are just like your mother!”
The shock dissipated for only a moment, and then, there was the acerbic mockery.
Andrea Jones furrowed her thin brow, her godless eyes fixed on her, her gaze a little sharp. Her hand gripped the doorknob a little harder. Taking a deep breath, she asked as calmly as she could, “Do you need something?”
Christina Sanchez was shaken by the look in her eyes. She was a little uncomfortable with such a barbed look.
“This is my son’s house, do I need something to come here?” Christina Sanchez sneered, reached out and pushed the door open, stepping in with a toe in the air.
Andrea Jones didn’t have the spirit or the strength to mess with her and just said feebly, “Neal Williams isn’t home.”
“Of course I knew he wasn’t there.”
“Do you know where he is?” She turned her head to Christina Sanchez.
Without directly returning her words, Christina Sanchez simply looked her all over, “It looks like you’re in pretty bad spirits these days with Neal Williams out of town.”
Andrea Jones turned her face away slightly from her eyes. Without looking in the mirror, she could imagine how pale she must look right now, and Christina Sanchez was right, she was in the worst shape of her life!
“Andrea Jones, I’ll say it up front! You and Neal Williams are never going to make it!” Christina Sanchez put her handbag down gracefully and sat down on the sofa, before her eyes fell on Andrea Jones’ belly, “This baby is the blood of the Williams family, so have it, and the Williams family will raise it. But you – is never to enter our the Williams family door!”
The last sentence, Christina Sanchez said unusually heavy, as if afraid that Andrea Jones could not hear clearly.
Andrea Jones took a deep breath and stood there with a stubbornly straight back, looking at her from above, her voice as calm as possible, “Don’t worry, I’m not marrying Neal Williams.”
Christina Sanchez narrowed her eyes at her, as if probing the truth of her words.
Andrea Jones bit her lip and continued in a cold voice again, “This baby … I won’t have it either!”
Christina Sanchez frowned, the suspicion in her eyes deepening. Originally, she thought she must be stalking, thinking that with the Williams family’s child everything would be fine. But then she looked at the stubborn and calm look on her face, and it didn’t seem like she was talking about gambling.
“Getting rid of the baby is just what I want.” Christina Sanchez nodded, “There’s no shortage of women for Neal to give birth to, and in the future, Penny Brown can do the same.”