When I woke up again, I heard a raspy and tired voice outside the door of the ward.
“Is it a bad situation?” Worried as hell.
“Well, the relatively low maternal progesterone, combined with the strong mental stimulation, has a tremendous impact on the fetus. If you want to keep the baby, we recommend temporary hospitalization for fetal preservation.”
“What are the chances of keeping it?” Obviously nervous.
The doctor was a bit regretful, “We can’t be sure about this for now. We’ll have to see the results after a period of treatment.”
“Good, then please!”
…
Fetus?
Is it talking about yourself?
Andrea Jones’ eyelashes fluttered, and the undried tears fell coolly on her cheeks. With difficulty, she moved her hand and placed her palm over the small of her back.
Here … have a little baby?
So incredible.
But …
It’s his …
Her fingers tremble at the thought of it.
His child … how can she stay?
If she is born, how will she explain to her dead father?
“Andrea, you’re awake?” Klein Williams was surprised and had come over, taking the lead and holding her hand.
“How is it? Where’s the discomfort?” Bonnie Williams took her other hand nervously.
The door of the ward, was pushed open from the outside.
Looking at the frail her on the hospital bed, a heavy pain crossed his eyes, but he did not approach.
As if afraid of the devastating hatred and despair in her eyes. The way she looked at herself, so strange, so strange that he was timid.
Standing just a short distance away, he gazed at her, “Are you hungry? What do you want to eat?”
Her whitened lips, trembling. Godless eyes, looking at him, half a long time, only from between the lips squeezed out a sentence, “This child … I do not want.”
As soon as the words fell, the three people in the ward all trembled.
The look of surprise on Neal Williams’ face when they found out she was pregnant is something Bonnie Williams and Klein Williams still remember vividly to this day.
He wants to be a father.
Especially, the child is still hers.
If he really did not want the child, it would undoubtedly be a huge blow to him.
“Andrea, don’t be impulsive …” Bonnie Williams couldn’t resist, “You’re a first child and miscarriages can be very damaging to a woman.”
“I don’t want it!” She said stubbornly, gritting her teeth and staring hatefully at Neal Williams, “I don’t want it! I don’t want to have your baby!”
Neal Williams shuddered hard again. Her hatred, so clearly visible, nailed his heart inch by inch like nails.
He gave her a gray look, pursed his lips, and spoke stiffly, “Calm down for a moment. These things can be discussed when you are better.”
Andrea Jones wanted to say something else, but he didn’t have the courage to listen any further.
He only turned around in despair, sank his steps, and stepped out of the ward.
He is confident that with Bonnie Williams and Klein Williams around, they will take good care of her …
But …
And he doesn’t leave.
Just standing against the doorway, his body stiff against the cold wall.
Let that chill, inch by inch, penetrate into his heart …
The whole person, gradually covered by gloom.
…
I don’t know how long it took, but Bonnie Williams came out of the hospital room and was upset to see Neal Williams disheveled.
“Should we go in and see her?” Bonnie Williams asked arduously.
Only then did he look up, his eyes gray, “Sleeping?”
“… Hmm. Too tired to fall asleep again.”
He didn’t go in, but just stood at the door and gazed deeply inside through the window.
She slept quietly there. Only at such times, the hatred in her heart and eyes will be collected and not open to stab him.
At this moment …
Two people are obviously so so close, but …
Between each other, but clearly has given birth to a huge gulf, who can not cross.
Just like that, let each other further and further away from each other …
He rested his forehead painfully against the door panel and closed his eyes.
Bonnie Williams patted him on the shoulder, “Talk it over between you two later, you love her so much, she’ll understand.”
“What did she say about the … kid?” Neal Williams asked, still unmoving against the door.
Bonnie Williams paused for a moment and looked at him with some regret, “Still. Neal, if she really, really doesn’t want the baby, then … talk to the doctor about it.”
“No way!” Neal Williams rejected her offer without a second thought.
She frowned, “Why do you have to force her? The more you force her, the farther you will go, don’t you understand? Now she’s angry!”
Neal Williams opened his eyes and looked at her, those tired eyes were full of grief, “If the baby is really gone, she and I are completely cut off … sister, in this life, maybe we really will never be able to do it again… …”
The voice is sad, powerless and more helpless. Bonnie Williams’ heart is sore, and she embraces him lovingly, “… I understand how you feel, I will persuade her again.”
Neal Williams didn’t say anything, just pursed his lips and didn’t say anything again.
…
The time passed a little, the night gradually came, she slept very restlessly, occasionally pulling the eyebrows, forehead floating layers of cold sweat.
Klein Williams patiently twisted the towel to wipe off her sweat. Looking at the busy figure, Bonnie Williams sighed and gave a sideways glance at Neal Williams, she finally pushed the door in and patted Klein Williams on the shoulder, “Three’s, we should go.”
“Sister, I want to stay.”
Bonnie Williams glanced at Neal Williams, who had already walked in, before turning back around and saying, “Give them some time and space. No matter what … we are just outsiders.”
Outsiders?
Klein Williams was slightly stunned.
The hand that was holding the towel tightened. Lowering his eyes to the small, pale face on the hospital bed, he finally put the towel down and paused for a moment before looking up at Neal Williams, “Second brother, she’s my buddy, stop bullying her!”
Thin lips lifted, he nodded, “I know.”
…
In the middle of the night, Andrea Jones woke up with a start. Haunted by nightmares, she sat up from bed.
She hadn’t had a nightmare like that in a long time – she had never felt more stable than when she was with Neal Williams. It was as if he was a protector from heaven, dispelling all the gloom in her heart with ease – she had been so lucky to have him!
However, never thought, it turns out, their own nightmares and terrors for so many years is actually him, but he still dares to appear in their world in such a dignified manner.
“Nightmares again?” A cold hand, held by a large one. His body temperature, like his own, was as cold as if he had no temperature.
The vision gradually came into focus.
Meet a pair of worried eyes.
She shuddered and her hand almost immediately tried to pull back, but was held tightly by his obstinate grip.
“You let go!” Her voice choked up at once.
The pain, the hatred that has been repressed in her body for a long time, is like a ferocious beast, violently tearing her heart, cruelly tearing her to pieces.
“Good girl … calm down!” Neal Williams not only did not let go, but also a force to her struggling body firmly embraced. The lower jaw lightly against the top of her head, he arduous lightly coaxed the emotional out of control her, “relax, I will not hurt you again, believe me … Andrea, believe me!”
He repeated those last three words, firmly and convincingly, just to make her understand what he was thinking at the moment.
However, she was completely immersed in her own emotions, how could she listen to them? In her eyes, he was a demon! Hideous and horrible!
“You let go of me!” She cried.
“I won’t let go! Never!” Neal Williams spoke in a deep voice, his tone unmistakable, “Andrea Jones, listen up, not only will I not let go of you, but our child … I will never compromise!”
Kids …
Her eyes grew more and more sore.
As if to vent anger, as if to gamble, “I don’t want a baby! I won’t have a baby!”
“It’s up to you!” He also became domineering.
Andrea Jones became more and more annoyed and threw her fist at him, but he stood still and let her vent.
However, the more she did, the more frustrated and powerless she felt. Suddenly she cried out in pain and opened her lips and bit down hard on his shoulder.
She did not have any mercy in her mouth, and the sharp pain did not lessen a bit through the shirt.
He shuddered, but still didn’t let go.
As long as she’s still around, she can vent all she wants.
These are the punishments he deserved when he was young and frivolous.
He, deserved it …
Seemingly tired of biting, she finally slowly let go of her shell teeth.
Blood, soaked through the shirt.
The smell of blood, some pungent.
However, he did not even frown.
In the next instant, her exit words, but he was shaken to dust …
“Neal Williams, even if you make me … I won’t have a rapist’s baby …”
He shuddered.
The face was as white as paper.
Even the big palm holding her began to tremble.
rapist …
This is the definition she gave herself, without a trace of emotion.
He was tempted to retort, but the truth made him unable to say a word.
The lips moved, but finally could not break the chains of sin she put on herself.
As if she couldn’t see his overblown look, she continued to harden her heart, coldly sarcastic and mocking, without a trace of emotion, “Is it that later when the child is born … I have to tell him that we started with you raping me? To let him know what kind of a person daddy is? How will you make him, make me feel?”
Yes …
How can I be embarrassed?
He is nothing but a ten-fold sinner, and who would want to give birth to a child for a sinner?
So …
He deserved to see his children leave …
These, all of them, are the punishment he should suffer …
Large palm, inch by inch, loosened from her body …
His dead gray eyes looked at her, lips, moved, finally squeezed out a few words, “You’re right … rapists are not equipped with children …”
His compromise, however, left her stunned.
A soreness in the chest, and inexplicably upward.
She bit her lip to death and refused to let the fog in her eyes rise again.
He stood up straight and kept a distance from her. Obviously very close, but, Andrea Jones felt in a trance, they were far, far away …
“If you’re going to have surgery tomorrow, then … start resting well now. I’ll talk to the doctor about the surgery.”
He, holding back his astringency, finished in one breath.
However, every word is so heavy and bitter.
It’s never easy to bury your child with your own hands …
He turned around and left.
The door, was brought.
A soft sound, but like a whip on the heart hard, so painful that Andrea Jones’s tears ‘pop’ fell down.
She doesn’t know what’s wrong, just …
Suddenly, like a child who has been greatly aggrieved, he hid the blanket and choked.
And then …
The cries are splashing louder and sadder …
They, have come to the end of the road …
This is the only choice that belongs to them.
But …
In her mind, however, she began to think back uncontrollably to their past …
…
At the annual meeting, on the roof of the building, they tilted their heads in fascination to watch the dazzling fireworks …
He wrapped her lovingly in his clothes, approached her carefully and embraced her …
…
In the neighborhood, he kissed her that hard and that decisively …
…
And …
On his wrist, a gift he went to great lengths to give himself …
…
Andrea Jones clutched the white jade bracelet on her wrist. I obviously wanted to take it off, but …