For a few minutes he didn’t speak, I gave a side nod telling him to go on. He sighed, “I was enraged. I hated my lycan from stopping me from marking the woman I love. My only fear was that she wouldn’t be with me till the end of eternity. My stupid mind came up with a plan of killing my lycan and become a human” disgust ran through ever vain in my body for that man.
“But Daisy somehow got a hunch that I’d be doing something stupid and stopped me. She had already wrapped me around her fingers and when she angrily yelled at me I Did nothing but obliged.
It was when Laura gave birth to her fourth pup when a 37 year old Daisy came to me and put my hand on her stomach. I was over the moon, after 21 years of our marriage. We finally were having a child.” From the peripheral vision I saw a huge smile take over his face. Jealousy had stabbed into my guts. I hated that woman who so easily took away the heart of the man whom I loved. I can still see that she still has an effect on him.
“The next four months were absolutely bliss. Like a good husband I tend to all her needs, brought her everything she whished for even before it came out of her mouth. I laid the world on her feet and in return I saw my child, my first child growing inside her. I was the happiest man in the world. And when my little princess was born I couldn’t imagine the joy flooding me. And when she clutched my finger in her hand I cried. I couldn’t hold it anymore. My little one couldn’t even curve her entire hand around my one finger. She was so precious, even though her eye color was like mine, she was an exact replica of her mother.” He said with a huge smile on his face. I could feel his lycan showing up in happiness.
“My Kristen was a very different than others. We had expected her to shift on her 12th birthday but she didn’t, I feared that my baby is a human, which means I will outlive her. No parent in the world wants to see their own blood die in front of them, it worst than hell. So Daisy and I went to a witch with her. The witch said she got all the powers of a lycan but she is not gifted with a lycan. She’ll have everything but her lycan, it felt like a huge weight has been lifted off my heart. As long as she is happy and healthy with her Erastis I was happy. My Kristen and Daisy were very close for she had always wished for a daughter and she got one. They were inseparably, their love for each other was beyond anyone’s imagination. But my fear was only Daisy for she was now over 60 years of age. We constantly had fights over the fact that soon she would leave me with Kristen so I wanted to turn her into a werewolf. Of course nobody can turn anyone into a lycan untill you have proven yourself worthy of being one to Zeus himself. But one day she broke down crying in front of me.
That day she accepted that she didn’t wanna become immortal because when my Erastis would come I’d leave her for my Erastis. And she’d rather die knowing that I love her with all my heart than to live till the end of eternity with me in the arms of another. I promised her that anything like that would never happen but she didn’t listen to me. For she had seen the love of Erastis’ and nothing was compared to that. Not even the love of your children. And before we know it at the age of 86 she died in her sleep…” He said and tears rolled down his eyes. Even my jealous heart strained with pain for the kind hearted woman.
“Kristen hated me for years. She was a fully grown woman and I had to explain her why I had to honour her mother’s words. When I told her it took time for her to digest it and when she did, she threw herself on me cringe for her dead mother. Even now she visits her mother’s grave twice a year, one on Daisy’s birthday and one on her death day. It took time for her to come around but after a century when she met her Erastis, she finally understood what her mother ment and she finally forgave me..” he said and looked at me.
“I have done and said a lot of things without fully knowing and understanding them. My lycan knew that you weren’t born in that century so he gave me the permission to be with Daisy but didn’t allow me to mark her. Even before we were born he was fully dedicated to you. Only when I met you did I under the gravity of my words, I loved Daisy, I really did and I still do. She is the mother of my child, my first born, of course I will love her. But with you.. you are more than love to me. You are more than a person we chose for each other. You are my best friend, my serenity, my salvation, my Valhalla. I can now finally understand my lycans devotion to you. I cannot imagine my life without you. Just the though of you in someone else’s arms makes my blood boil and the need to burn down the world to ashes.” He said pulling me to him. This time I didn’t resist. His eyes were blowing blue showing his lycan and the vehement love he has for me.
“No body will take you away from me. You’re only mine. MINE.” He let out a growl and pushed his face on my neck. He rubbed his face all over my neck mumbling ‘mine’ over and over again.
I can understand that his lycan needs reassurance that I am still here, with him and going no where. So I wrapped my arms around him, “It’s okay” I whispered softly and rocked him untill his fears go but nothing of that sort happened. Instead he became more possessive. He started growling at the air that started coming frequently.
He soon got up with me with me in his arms. He carried me back at my penthouse. He laid me down on my bed and hastily came beside me, cocooning me, “Please don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me.” He kept on whispering and shaking in fear. His arms were bruisingly tight around my waist but I didn’t care, he needed me right now. I cannot leave him, I won’t leave him. No matter what.
I cannot just pin him down for his past. He really did nothing but want to love and when others warned him he shrugged him off. Others may have thought that he’d leave her, but he didn’t. He said he loved her and he did. He gave her every happiness a woman could ever desire. That is a man. My man.
He did say a lot of things without understanding them and now that his words hit him. He himself feels suffocated with the idea of me being dead.
As I have said before, one would not pin down one for the past because who ever they are right now is because of the past choices. Good or bad. You are what you are because of your past. Learn to let go and embrace the future with experience and love.
In a few minutes he was snoring peacefully. I then pushed his hands off my waist and went to the bathroom to freshen up. When j came back showered and dressed up I saw a message from Kristen on my phone.
‘Hey Nora,
Are we still on for today?’
Her text said, I shook my head and replied,
‘Hey sweetie,
I am sorry but I won’t be able to make it today. Can we please reschedule it for tomorrow? If you’re free?’
I replied and lie down next to a sleeping Sebastian. I smiled at myself and reached his face ever so lovingly with my fingers. My phone went off with a text,
‘Yeah tomorrow will do for me,
Early in the morning? I have to show you something..’ her text came
I confirmed and told her to meet me at 8 am in a new ice cream parlor. What does she wants to show me? I shrugged it off and pulled the blanket on me and snuggled towards my Sebastian. Soon I was out like a light.