I stumbled back falling on the ground, miserably, weak and helpless. I was wounded, so badly injured that I wished to die than to breath. My wolf felt so exhausted that I couldn’t feel him but his pain, he was defenseless unable to protect me, he whined and whimpered, that’s all I could hear from his side. He couldn’t offer me any kind of support, it is now that I need him the most. The slashes of claws going all over my body, chunks of meat missing and even dangling off. I crawled towards the tree from the sea of dead bodies, some of them had their limbs missing, some had their head ripped apart, some had their organs pulled out and some were eaten out by the rouges, it was bone chilling. I crawled towards the tree in such a way as if it’s the only life support I have, tears spilled out of my eyes making me hiss in pain when the salt water met the cut on my face. I sat up leaning on the tree waiting for some miracle to take place. My eyes suddenly caught a movement I began hyper prevailing when I saw the vicious grey wolf walk towards me, the wolf because of whom I am in this condition. Nobody had ever heard of anything like that,,,, that wolf.
The barbaric wolf stood a few feets away from me, observing my moves. It walked up and down, it’s vengeful eyes not leaving mine. I whimpered when I tried to look too long into it’s eyes. It’s was horrifying, no wolves I have met or heard about has those eyes, it’s a abyss of dark evil in pure white eyes. My heart beat increased, making it more difficult for me to breath as the wolf now approached me. It stench of something oddly familiar yet different and lethal. My wide went wide open as the wolf charged towards me, my heart rate accelerated. My entire life flashed through my eyes, all the things that defined me, everything I had done to be here. At that point I was no alpha, just a boy who was scared. 1
My voice had suddenly vanished, I couldn’t scream. I put both of my hands over my face and sealed my eyes shut in freight. The last thing I remember was the silver claws raised in my direction and a numbing pain shot throughout my body.
“AAAHHHHHHHHHHHH” I shouted on top of my lungs, I tried to sit up but my body didn’t allow me to. I laid on the bed crying helplessly. That day still haunts me, always sending chills down my spine. My heart clenched in woe, I remember crawling between all those dead bodies. My dead packmates, whom I swore to protect. I failed them, I failed them all. I have not been anything but a disappointment to everyone. I looked up to the ceiling and sobbed. That memory haunts me every second of my miserably life.
The door burst open, “Are you okay baby?” Janine’s cornered voice ranged throughout the room. I turned my face to the other side as I cried silently, I felt the other side of the bed dip as she crawled towards me. I shut my eyes shut not wanting to look at her, if only I could move. Then maybe.. just maybe I would have my mate in my arms and protect her from all the harm she is facing alone.
She pulled me up to sit, putting some pillows around me so I don’t fall. My heart felt heavy, I used to be an alpha. I used to have everyone do everything for me and now I am dying to even get a chance to lift a spoon to my mouth. I cried without any kind of sound coming from my mouth, I looked at Janine who had a huge bruise on her cheek and a busted lip. Her eyes looked so tired, her struggles could be seen easily by the bag under her eyes. I looked away from her. All this is my fault. Only if.
I felt her lift my arms and get under it, wrapping her arms around my waist, he looked up at me with her pained blue eyes, “It’s okay baby” she whispered soothingly. Rubbing her palm on my chest, my tears leaked freely. I wanted to warp my arms around her. I wanted to feel my mates soft warm skin under my finger tips. I sobbed, “If only I was functional, I would have been able to prevent all of it” I said guiltily and shake my head in disdain.
“It’s not your fault, gilly” she said sadly (short from of Gilbert)
“We all are paying for our wrong doing in our own way.. you couldn’t have prevented anything, love.” She said sighing. I nodded my head in agreement, “Of all the mistake, I still shiver in disgust for everything I did to Nora. She didn’t do anything to me.. but I.. how could I have done something so vile?” I sobbed the last part remembering her screams, begging for mercy. I didn’t stop. None of us did and now our karma has caught up to us. Except for that scoundrel and Nora’s ‘parents’
“She is alive, Gilbert” she whispered after sometime, my heart leaped suddenly as I looked at her wide eyed.
“They found out and now he is after her… I saw her, Gilbert. She looked happy. I don’t want anything to happen to her. Not this time, Gilbert” she tells me, sincerity and honestly dripping from every word. I didn’t know, what I was feeling, I was happy that she is alive and well but I am afraid to face her.
“We can’t let him get to her” I tell her. She nods her her in agreement. We stay there in silence, “I love you Janine” I tell her. She looks up at me, even her bruised face looks so angelic, “I love you too, gilly” she says softly and kisses my chest. That night after a very long time I slept in peace.
Nora’s POV
“What are you doing here, Tyler?” I asked impassively. I could feel Sebastian’s confusion through our bond. Tyler had a hard look on his face as his eyes travelled from Edmund to Henry to Sebastian. His jaws clenched, “I know you told me not to come to your life.. but I need to talk to you for a minute” he pleadingly said not beating around the bush1
“Take them outside Arora” I said harshly, not directed to her but to him.
“Stay here, Sebastian” I told him softly, his arms still wrapped around me, he nodded without a word.
The four of them walked out leaving just the three of us here, “Why are you here?” I asked stepping away from Sebastian and walked towards Tyler threateningly, dominating him with my lycan. Tyler stumbled back wide eyed, “You’re a lycan” he said in disbelief to which I didn’t respond with anything but an inscrutable look.
He whimpered and showed hai neck in submission, “I didn’t come here to jeopardize your life in anyway..” I said looking down at the ground. I take a long breath, “I am just here to let you know that he found you…. Justin found you” he said looking up at me. I was shocked to say the least, “Hmm took them long enough” I said not being impressed. Then I remembered, “I do remember smelling Thomas’ scent yesterday” I whisper to myself but it was loud enough for both of them to hear me.
“Yeah he was the one to inform about you…” He trailed off. I huffed, “Thank you for the information. The door is that way” I say professionally cold and showed him the door. His face fell and a pained look took over, “I am sorry Nora. If only I didn’t run off… Maybe things would have been different” he said for the millionth time. 1
“I know it’s my fault an–” he started to ramble on but I cut him off, “Okay I am gonna stop you right there” I said in annoyance. I rubbed my palm on my face, “I have told you a million times, Tyler. It wasn’t your fault. And even if you think you are in fault, then don’t because I don’t hold you accountable for anything.” I said coldly but soothingly. He looked so helpless and in pain, his eyes glimmered with tears, “I could have preven-” he began saying more but I had enough of his self pity.
“Look Tyler, you can’t blame yourself for all the things they did to me. They had a choice and they made it, Briana fooled everyone. And they believed her. You couldn’t have done anything, even if we wouldn’t have rejected each other I would have been miserable not knowing the truth and being with you…” I tell him truthfully and sighed, “I am happy for everything that has happened, it framed me. Good or bad, they all made me who I am. And I wouldn’t a thing for what I have now. I am grateful for everything. I am grateful for all the rejection I had. So stop blaming yourself” I said as nicely as possible not trying to hurt him in any sort of way. I may have changed in a lot of way but I would never in a million years hurt an innocent soul. I knew he didn’t have any hand in the matter but since the last 7 years since he found I was alive, he has been begging for my forgiveness.
“I don’t hold any grudges towards you, ty nor do I wish any bad on you. You just did what your heart told you and it’s okay. I don’t forgive you because you have nothing to be forgiven for. You were one good part about my past and I would like to keep it that way, in the past.” I said hinting him to go away. He looked at me with his sad blue eyes, “Anything you want..” he said and walked to wards the door. He stopped for a second and looked back with a small smile.
“By the way, my kids love the dessert you make” he said and walked out of the door. I smile to myself, he has beautiful set of twins boys, 13 year olds and one 8 year old girl. His wife was a month pregnant when they came for Gilbert’s wedding, that’s why she was acting all emotional. She is still happy and healthy till this day, she did too once met me and apologized profusely. As did too had nothing to be forgiven for, she did what any other she-wolf would do if they saw their mate kissing someone else, if not more.
“What is going on?” I was broken off my my train of thoughts, I looked back at him. A confused frown was etched in his picturesque face, I sighed. I was dreading this day, when I had to explain my past.. all of it. I looked up at him, “We should go somewhere alone” I said.