“Alpha Deimos. The healer?” Elriam turns to him with questioning eyes.
“The healer is not here. You know the process of this, I shall leave it to you. You tell me what to do and I shall do it.” My male vocalises his trust in this female for if it weren’t for her he would surely falter in his composure. There is no unease he holds to take orders from a female that to a wolf beneath him in rank and status. *All he sees is me.*
“First wash your hands then I need blankets, warm water and towels.” Are all she states and he speedily marches towards the bathroom equipping all the things she asked of him.
“Alpha I am going to cleanse my hands first then I shall check how far you are dilated. It seems as though you have been in labour for a while now.” Elriam mutters as she enters the washroom where Deimos is hurriedly working on bringing the things she asked. “Alpha Deimos scrub your nails together like this for when the pup comes out it will possess a highly vulnerable immune system and is susceptible to infections which are likely to obtained from us.”
Deimos nods at her and scours his hands following the way Elriam shows him. “Deep breaths. Take deep breaths. You can push if you feel like it.” She says to me the walls of the bathroom echoing her words for my ears.
I abide by her instructions, working on my breathing it feels as though I am being shredded apart from the inside as though my pup craves to rip through my stomach.
“Not warm enough, make the water warmer Alpha Deimos. And these towels are they clean?”
“Yes, they are clean. I make sure Lumina does not use unsanitized essentials. Check it now, is it warm enough?”
“It shall do.” She replies as the both of them trudge towards me arranging the supplies on the mattress beside me. As she stated Elriam inserts her finger into my vaginal hole halting to see if I am dilated. “Goddes, your cervix is fully dilated to ten centimetres. This is good you do not need to wait much now.” A soft smile remains on her face, she is excited about our next pup. Our family shall grow bigger.
“Elriam I wish to bring our pup to the world. Tell me how.” Deimos declares standing behind her his eyes adhere to mine, he cannot bear to see me in misery.
“Is your bladder empty?” She questions me as I breathlessly shake my head in denial rather it is full. “Alpha Deimos she needs to urinate first for your pup will require more space for its head to move downwards.”
“I understand. I shall support her.” My male comes to my side, as gently as he can he hooks his arms beneath my flesh and with a terse grunt he picks me up as my blood glides down my legs to saturate the planes of his chest. Yet he pays no heed to it, he is blind to everything but me.
A low whine leaves my lips as he settles me on the toilet seat, urinating kills me it feels as though a razor-sharp knife is being plunged straight into my being. “Breathe with me, my female.” He murmurs as I tiredly lean my head upon his stomach whilst his fingers curl in my locks massaging my head thoughtfully. I follow the way he breathes gazing up to meet his tranquil emeralds.
“Deimos, it hurts.” I whimper sobbing faintly tears flowing down my cheeks whilst my mate kneels by my feet taking a hairband from the basin to tie my hair.
“Hush, I am right here. Forgive me, my female, I had thought that I would be by your side holding your hand whilst you birthed our pup but the circumstance has me bound. My duty has changed I shall birth our pup. Stay strong, my light.” He lays his forehead upon mine eyes closed he soothes me with the caring touch of his flesh.
Deimos waits whilst I urinate, there is no withdrawal that comes from him to the foul stench of it or the trickling sound of it. He is patient and understanding, grasping a wet towel he wipes my blood that coats my inner thighs cleaning me as a means to relieve my tainted flesh.
“All right, I shall remove your dress Lumina so you feel disengaged. Your wolf what is she doing?”
“S-She is resting.” I choke out my hands around his neck taking in his scent that I desperately need. He hastily removes my bloody dress tossing it to the floor and carries my naked being back to the bed.
“Tell me what I must do.” He speaks as Elriam stands beside him scrutinising me over his shoulders.
“Once she begins pushing to aid your pup to move through the birth canal we simply wait. For it is she who must do most of the work.”
“What do we wait for?”
“The crowning. We wait for the pup’s head and you must ease it out, Alpha Deimos.”
A plangent scream erupts from the abyss of my throat, “I cannot do this. I cannot.” I weep.
“You can for there is nothing in this world you cannot do, Lumina. Push my female.” He comforts me holding my palm whilst Elriam adjusts the towels that shall hold our pup. I spread my legs farther the pain oozes from the start of my spine down to my rectum that assigns an unwavering strike straight to my abdomen.
I feel the tear that occurs within me, how my pup makes a way to life. Each push feels like my insides are being pulled at twisted and gorged. I am underwater and drowning I cannot breathe well. “Give me your pain, my light. Let me share yours.” Deimos states as I immerse my claws into his flesh without warning and he bleeds with me.*My pain is his.*
He grunts and groans to the injury I inflict on his body yet he takes it without hesitance partaking in my pain. His emeralds never leave mine his soul speaks to me, encourages and subdues my bitter suffering.
“Deimos.” I screech his name out my chest heaving my head spinning clawing further down his flesh straight to the bone yet he handles it like the tough male he is.
Elriam tries to withdraw my claws from his flesh for I am causing a grave injury. “No. Leave her be. If this comforts her, then I am content.” My male stops her allowing me to seek relief from him this way.
She stoops down inspecting my vagina her eyes swelling to what she sees. “Just a little more, you are close!” Grinding my teeth clenching my jaw, I push with the entirety of my energy left to deliver the little one who battles to depart my belly.
Deimos squats steady, his bloody flesh waiting for his pup who shall meet its father for the first time. His wolf remains proudly on his hind legs witnessing the birth of his pup, this is what I had rejected him from the last time.
A stretching burning sensation around the rim of my vaginal hole has Elriam insert the towels onto Deimos’s hands. “Can you see it, the head of your pup? Ease the path, Alpha Deimos.”
The tear of my hole has me shriek louder, my pup’s head stretches it to the peak splitting it apart to make way. I feel my male’s hands clawing at the pup’s head to bring it out.
“The head is too slippery.” Deimos bellows with nervousness as Elriam wipes his hands and tells him to try again.
“Goddess!” I cry in torture whilst Deimos hands quiver as he strives to draw his pup out of me.
“I have our pup, Lumina. I am almost there, my female. One last push for me.”
Clutching onto the mattress for dear life opening my legs further apart I abide by his wishes with unimaginable anguish as the shrill cries of a newborn pup penetrates through the air and a feeling of euphoria settles deep within my soul.
This is what I had yearned to hear for the past nine months, this is pure happiness.
“Alpha you must cut the umbilical cord,” Elriam says to a startled male who gawks at the crying pup with widened luminous emeralds. Deimos takes the scissors from her hands and with shuddering hands, he belatedly sets my pup free.
He shuffles towards me regarding the wailing pup that clings to his chest nestled inside a blanket. “You fill me with pride, my female. My strong warrior.” My moon blessed whispers to me whilst he sits by my side to pass a feather-like kiss on my sweat coated forehead.
I beam up at him my eyes drowsy as I observe the way he interacts with our secondborn. He laughs first gazing down at our pup until laughter varies to audible sobs as tears spew down his cheeks, his lips tugged back to exhibit his cheerful smile.
“Why are you crying, my male?”
“For I have beheld such radiating beauty before.”
“Describe our pup to me.” I wheeze out. I wish to see our pup from his eyes.
“Dazzling grey eyes, adorable chestnut hair. Our pup is like a little you, Lumina. The moon has granted me once more what I yearned for. With this, my sins are pardoned.” He weeps clamorous sobs quaking his flesh as he gapes down at the little one with affectionate eyes.
That night, when the moon stood full and proud in the vast night skies. My male whispered the very same words he had once professed to me.
He laid his forehead against the little one’s closing his eyes he proclaimed it out powerfully and aloud for all to hear and celebrate. But that time those words were not meant for me but for our pup, he clutched in his hands.
*”My female, mine.”*