“Yes please.” I reply my wolf bounding and skipping with her tail wagging ready for a treat. She loves sweets more than me to say.
My eyes dart to the windows as rain scatters and streams down the windows. I get up to walk closer for a better view but hunch down as the first cramp takes what is due. My abdomen pulls in as a painful throb pushes out. My body is getting hotter with time.
I sit back upon the chair waiting for it to subside I am still not in the main circle of heat yet. Deimos strides over with a plate and places it before me. I look at the dish and smile. I do like it a lot. “Donuts.” I whisper.
“No. Not donuts. It is bomboloni.” He says taking the first sweet and gulping the entire bun in one bite. He has a large mouth not that I am complaining. A large mouth comes with a long tongue. It has its benefits.
“Bomboloni?” I ask him frowning.
“Yes, they are Italian donuts. The older females in the pack made it every year for my birthday but stopped as soon as you arrived. Perhaps they wished for you to take over.” He says.
“They sure love you. Rather they spoil you a lot I would say.” I chuckle grabbing my part of the confection, taking a deep bite but stop munching halfway to ask him a question.
“Lumina you will speak after you have swallowed.” My male says reprimanding my table manners. He always teaches me what is right and wrong. I was never exposed to these kinds of things so he always guides me.
Gulping down the remains I ask him, “Your birthday is coming soon is it not?” I ask him looking down at my feet playing with my fingers upon my lap.
There is a deep silence that envelopes us in the room. I feel his gaze on me burning through my flesh. Years. We never celebrated birthdays for the years we have been together. In the past, we chose not to for we had problems being mates and the recent years we have been extremely busy with our hectic roles that the thought never occurred to us.
“It is.” Is all he says. Of course, that is all he would say. I look away from him the first sign that I am upset.
“We will be back home by then won’t we?” I ask.
“Yes, we will.” Short and frank answers. His show of disinterest. I stand up quickly my chair screeching loudly against the floor. Striding to the sofa I sit back watching the rain instead of speaking another word. I feel him watching me. Let him watch. He doesn’t understand anything.
With a soft sigh, he walks towards me and sits next to me still keeping his eyes on his female
With a soft sigh, he walks towards me and sits next to me still keeping his eyes on his female. “You know I do not see the point in celebrating birthdays, Lumina.” He speaks, tone soft. I keep my eyes straight not wishing to neither look at nor speak to him.
He raises his hand to touch my flesh but I slap it away before it could do so surprising him. “Lumina.” He warns. He doesn’t like my attitude. He doesn’t like me denying him. The room is getting hotter despite the chilly storm, I have begun to sweat.
“You know why! I do not even know the day I was born, if I did I would make sure to celebrate it every year. You are celebrating life, Deimos! What about our pups? Would you deny them this as well?” I spew my questions in fury out to him. He is very lucky to be able to have a chance of knowing and celebrating the day he was born unlike me.
“I would never deny them that, Lumina. My birthday is not so important.” He replies voice calm.
“It is! It is for me! It is my male’s birthday.” I scream tears welling in my eyes waiting for him to irk me with more words so I can let them free.
Shifting closer he pulls me to his chest, baring his neck to me so I can calm down with the scent of his flesh. “I understand. If this is what you want I shall pay heed to it.” He whispers with a soft kiss to my cheek. I snuggle deeper into his warmth clutching onto his shirt trying to cage my emotions.
“Thank you.” I whisper with a kiss to his chest. He always agrees to my wishes sometimes he just needs a little nudge from my side.
“From this year onward, we will celebrate your birthday the same day as mine.” He whispers as I push away to see his eyes.
“What?” I ask my eyes widening.
“I will announce to our pack, Lumina. The day you were born will be celebrated with mine.” He says with a smile as I grab his neck pulling him down to me. He lets out a small laugh surprised.
“I am happy.” I say my truth.
“And I will do anything for your happiness to remain, my light.” He whispers.
We sit like that for some time until my cramps return. My body begins to heat up like wildfire. Deimos holds me tightly to him and rocks us as small whines and whimpers leave my lips. He must find it very difficult to choose to comfort his female rather than take her like a beast.
“Let us go for a swim, Lumina. The cold water will help subside the discomfort.” He tells me whilst carrying me to the bedroom.
Once inside, he makes me sit on the bed softly. Fingers hooking the bottom of his shirt he strips leaving his chest bare. Rain pounds the earth hard and the trees are swung back and forth with the wind’s force.
“I-I don’t think this is a good idea, Deimos.” I say quickly trying to keep my eyes off of him. He doesn’t pay heed to my words as he continues stripping until he is bare as a newborn pup. His feet weigh into the wooden floor as he strides towards the edge of the open balcony.
With one last glance at me he jumps, the sound of water splashing rides into my ears. Unable to see him anymore I take small steps towards the edge looking for him. I find the muscles of his back as his arms and legs thrust deep into the waters.
“Don’t think too much my female. Jump.” He says voice loud and clear enough for me to hear. Contemplating if this is a good idea the need to cool my body empowers my mind. Searching for my bag, I find it on top of the suitcase.
I look at the pill strip clenched tight in my palm. I need to take one now and one after I possess his seed. I need to make a decision. Glancing back at my male who is swimming as if he has no care in the world. He waits for me.
What I have right now, what I have bled to acquire. I don’t want to give it away. I don’t want to go back to those days where he was cold-hearted and unmerciful with me. I love him with my mind, heart, and soul. I will protect what we have built together until now, my male. Until you are ready.
Taking a pill out of its socket I place it upon my tongue. I could spit it out. Turning around to face him again he waves with a smile calling me to him with his eyes. The fire within my body erupts. I am doing this for us. Perhaps next time will be different and our want for pups will be mutual. I want to cry but I don’t. I want to sob in his arms but I won’t.
I will be strong. Swallowing the pill, I strip quickly walking to the edge of the balcony. “Jump, my female.” He says with a chuckle and I jump with no second thought.
It is done.