“My female.” Deimos calls out to me.
Though I cannot see, I hear his voice. Though I cannot see, I feel his warmth. “Come.” He says. “Come to me, Lumina.” A smile graces my lips as my heart swims in his ocean. If this is a dream I don’t wish to wake up. I wish to stay here and keep listening to his voice.
I feel as though I am lost in a vast land, searching for him. Only following his voice to find where he resides. The green grass reminds me of his eyes that sparkle like a jewel in the sunlight. It’s a beautiful place with no wolf but he and I. I search frantically trying to reach him until a silhouette comes into view.
Patiently, I wait for the male to turn, I wait for him. The silhouette startles as he senses me and he slowly turns to look at me. My eyes widen as my body trembles. A soft smile graces his lips, his eyes gentle. I stand still not moving an inch from the spot dragging my eyes over his body.
He slowly opens his arms for me to run into and without hesitation, I run. Lifting my white dress off the ground, my bare feet strikes deep into the mud. He waits for me to stumble into him, my hands extended in front of me.
Just a little more. Just one touch, please! But before my finger could even graze him he distorts and disappears into thin air like pieces of torn paper and I fall to the ground. I look around aimlessly and a laugh leaves my lips, knowing the truth I must accept.
Either he is dead or I am.
I lie back onto the grass floor. Looking at the blue sky I find no thoughts provoke me. I feel peaceful. Perhaps I have finally reached my destination, this must be the end of my fight. The end of me. Placing my palms beneath my head for support I close my eyes slowly.
I might be going crazy at the moment that I am quiet and relaxed when I am supposed to be in fear and anxiety of this unknown situation but this is how it is and I-
“Has she still not awaken?” I hear Guaritrice’s voice and I get up quickly looking around only to find eerie emptiness.
“No. I guess we need to try again.” Elriam says and I turn quickly running in circles finding the source of their voices.
“Yes I agree, let’s try again.” Ragon replies from another side. Their voices boom all around me making it difficult to look for them. I don’t understand, are we all here together? Now the fear finally hits me. The sky releases a sudden boom of thunder and I scream covering my ears. It’s too loud… too loud to be a simple thunder.
The blue sky darkens to a pitch-black and the clouds release their tears as rain pounds the earth. Lightning strikes the tree next to me and I startle watching it go up in flames. The thunder keeps striking and the rain falling upon my skin burns me.
I search frantically for shelter but I find none. The field becomes smaller and smaller encaging me in a circle leaving me no way to run. I am surrounded by darkness as my heart pounds with fear. My nails itch my skin heavily trying to soothe the burn but makes it bleed.
I look up at the sky in fear of the lightening but the second I do it directly strikes my body flinging me back as a loud screech leaves my lips. A black hole opens wide ready to swallow me as I try to grab onto something along the way. But this place’s power is more than mine to win over. I am thrown into the hole and I fall aimlessly, my hands failing.
My body seems light as I sink deeper. The cold breeze carries me downward and I know I am close to the end. I shut my eyes in fear of hitting the ground soon. The impact will be painful. My body hits the ground hard however I feel no pain as if I am lying upon a soft bed. A sudden jolt pulses through my body like an electric shock and my heart pumps again.
My eyes flutter open slowly but my view is blurry as my dry eyes begin to adjust. I find four silhouettes’ in front of me and hear their voices all mingled together. One of them turns towards me and quickly walks to my side.
“Look who is finally awake.” Elriam says.
“She probably cannot see us. Bring me that.” I hear the voice of the healer. A few seconds pass and my eyelids are pulled back whilst droplets of something cold eases over my sclera. My eyelids are pressed close and massaged softly in circles.
“Open your eyes, slowly.” The healer says and I pay heed to her words.
The blurriness has disappeared and I see every wolf clearly. I am pulled up into a sitting position. “Oh thank Goddess.” Elriam brings me into her arms. Her nose stuffed into the side of my neck taking in my scent. Ragon stands behind her hands crossed behind his back watching quietly.
I let the wolves perform several check-ups on me as they make me read and speak what is written on a board. I don’t speak another word as I swim in depression. I look around the white room and smell the familiar disinfectant.
I am back, aren’t I? To a world where my male still sleeps.
Elriam hands me a cold glass filled with a bitter drink but I still gulp it all down with no expression or protest. “How many days?” That is all I ask her.
“Five.” She replies. “You could have woken up earlier. But your body did not respond.” She continues.
I stare at her blankly as the memory of the field takes over my thoughts. “Is that so.” I say. She sits on the bed slowly looking into my eyes.
“Did you not wish to wake up?” She questions me a look of fear encaged in her eyes. Silence envelopes us and as we stare at each other. Her body trembles as she prepares herself for my answer.
I finally look away giving her my answer quickly. “No.” I say and a soft cry leaves his lips. Her fists clench the sheet of the bed and she gets up and walks out of the room without another word as my eyes follow her.
I have hurt her. A stab hits my heart as I look down playing with my fingers. A confused Ragon enters the room watching Elriam leave in a hurry. “I-Is everything all right?” He questions and I shake my head in disapproval.
“Nothing seems to be all right these days.” I reply softly.
“Why?” He questions and I frown.
“Why what?” I ask.
“Why aren’t you asking about him?” He says and I smile. Not a happy one but a smile that hides pain and fear.
“I am not ready. This here keeps showing me a lot of images I don’t wish to see anymore. I remember what happened to him before I passed out so I pretty much know the result.” I reply jabbing a finger to the side of my forehead.