Have you ever sunk deep into the depth of desire as your heart wished for you to drown while your mind told you to fight against the waves? When I look at Deimos I am always caught by desire’s net. Desire to touch. A desire for a taste. Desire to possess. With each passing day, it overtakes me inch by inch sinking its fangs deep within me sucking my will to fight.
It has been days since Deimos brought me back and he often tries to be near me. From a heated gaze to a soft graze against my skin. Though I act as if I do not care, I hide behind my veil of happiness. It makes me happy to see him try. It’s a first.
“Luna!” Ragon calls out to me with a big wave as I greet him with a smile.
“Ragon. Quite energetic today?” I ask him softly with a chuckle as his cheeks burn to a shade of pink.
“I was just happy to see you. We missed this. We missed seeing you like this, being a part of us.” He smiles though I can see a hint of sadness in his eyes as he recalls those days.
“I only said what I said as a joke but I understand,” I tell him softly as Ragon clears his throat.
“Luna I wanted to te-.” Ragon begins to speak as he is cut off by another wolf.
“Beta! You need to hurry or we are going to be late!” The wolf shouts towards Ragon as he looks behind and sighs.
“Luna I apologize but would you please do me a favour and keep these in Alpha’s office. These are extremely important documents that I cannot entrust to any other wolf. I was going to keep it myself but looks like I need to leave right now.” Ragon asks me hesitantly as I nod taking the files from his hand.
“No problem. Go ahead. I’ll make sure I deliver these safely.” I tell him walking towards Deimos’s castle as Ragon bows and runs to the car.
Humming a light tune I climb up the stairs approaching Deimos’s office. I walk softly, my footsteps quiet as my feet land upon the wooden floor. Reaching his office I knock on the door waiting for his reply. I wait for a few seconds as I hear no sound from the other side of the door.
Placing my hand on the door handle I open the door slowly as his scent flows into my nostrils. The table and the floor are filled with papers and notes. His bookshelf seems unorganized which is unusual. Stepping into the office I sweep my eyes through all of his mess.
With a loud sigh while shaking my head I begin grabbing all the papers and books organizing and cleaning up the office. Walking towards his table my eyes land on the pile of books thrown across it.
I pick up the bright pink coloured book as I read its title. “How to fall in love?” Looking towards the other books I read their titles as well. “What is love? How to make her fall in love. Differences between males and females… What is the meaning of love?” I chuckle loudly and begin to get into a fit of laughter.
Isn’t this male funny? How can you understand love by reading books? Love is not to be understood but felt and shown! But in his case, I don’t think he has a choice. This is his way of learning. I just… love the fact that he’s trying. I love that he wishes to take the first step and help heal the main blockage in our relationship.
I begin to flip through the books scanning across the words littered on the pages. Some of them hold great deep meaning while the others teach like how you would to a pup. This is quite interesting. I never knew books like these existed.
The sound of someone clearing their throat startles me as I drop the books quickly and turn around. Deimos stands leaning on the door hands folded across his chest with his eyebrows raised questioningly.
“I-I w-was… I was just you know.” I begin to explain stuttering. I feel nervous all of a sudden.
“Snooping?” He asks me as his lips lift to a slight smirk.
“Cleaning. I was going to say cleaning.” Bending down, I pick up the books off the floor putting them back on the table arranging them one upon the other. With one last look at the table, I nod feeling satisfied with its cleanliness.
“Thank you, mate,” Deimos whispers in my ear, his voice husky as I flinch and turn around quickly only to come face to face with Deimos. I gasp due to the sudden closeness between us as he watches my lips and I watch his eyes. How did he even get so close without me noticing?