Emily’s p. o. v
Is he telling the truth? Answer me!” I screamed on top of my voice.
“Yes!. Yes, he is okay!. I was young and stupid, I wasn’t thinking straight too. I was blinded by jealousy and envy.” He answered loudly then coughed badly.
I slowly lifted my hand and wiped off my tears.
“You and I are done!” I spat seriously then turned and faced Cole.
“That doesn’t make you any innocent. You knew how I felt about everyone and who I was in love with. Yet you took advantage of me and continued playing with my emotions. I don’t want to talk to you nor look at you Cole, because you make me sick.” I whispered then walked out ignoring Jason’s call and cries.
I pretended to be strong as I walked into the pack house. Immediately I went into the bedroom, I locked the door and went to my knees breaking down in tears.
My hands and body were trembling as I cried on top of my voice.
Why was it me who had to go through such a horrible experience!.
How could Jason do such a thing to me. He was selfish and a coward!.
The time he spent with me was built on lies!. He was a murder and couldn’t even come clean to his pack. I was suppose to hate him and be disgusted by him!. Yet there was this part of me that wanted to forgive him and comfort him from all the pain he was going through!.
And Cole, to think he would be different but no he wasn’t. Now I understood that Identical twins weren’t all that different. He pretended to be Jason’s wolf just to keep me away from the truth and have me all to himself.
The more I thought about everything the more I wished to sleep and never wake up. I lay on the ground with my arms wrapped around my stomach.
The only strength I had left was because of the child growing inside of me. I wasn’t going to kill myself nor make my unborn child suffer because of those two selfish bastards.
I was going to live my life, far away from them and their toxic world.
The door handle moved but I couldn’t move nor get up. I had no strength left to stand.
“Emily.” Cole’s voice came through.
“My love please let us talk this through.” He whispered.
“I know I was selfish with what I did. I kept my identity a secret and took advantage of you. Please forgive me. It’s just that….. the night I went to Jason’s pack, I had only one thing in mind and that was to destroy the bastard. I had no idea I would find you, my mate in the shitty hell hole. But then I met you, looking so angelic on that bed and everything changed. I was so happy and wanted to just hold you in my arms and tell you everything about me. But then I inhaled your scent and saw Jason’s mark on your neck. I lost it, I completely marked you against your will and took you away from him. I had no idea that you thought of me as Jason then, I swear.” He said softly.
“Then when did you realize that I had no idea who you really were?” I asked in my mind silently.
“When we went to Brandon’s pack, the brothers confronted me and told me how you would be mistaking me for Jason. I was so furious with them and thought they were just spitting nonsense. That’s why I took you outside and asked you who you thought I was. When you said Jason I was angry with you, and I wanted nothing more than to kill that bastard. But I couldn’t, because I didn’t want you to forever hate me.” He answered.
“You kept me in the dark and wanted to forever keep it that way!. How could you even look me in the eyes every day and confess your love for me when it was all based on your selfishness!” I screamed in my mind then sniffed and forced myself to sit upright.
“Emily, please let me in. Let’s talk face to face.” He said loudly.
“I don’t want to look at your face right now.” I answered in a whisper.
“I won’t look at you I promise.” He said softly.
I forced myself to my feet and moved to the bed to lay down.
“Do what you want Cole it’s your stupid place anyway.” I whispered then lifted my hands and wiped off my tears.
“It’s not only my house my love, it’s your home too as well as our unborn child.” He answered.
Tears instantly filled my eyes.
My unborn child was not a mistake and would never be. I loved him or her even before I could see how he or she would look like.
“Please, let me just look at you for a second. I can’t calm down and I’m so worried about you. Today you had gone through a lot.” He whispered.
I kept quiet without answering then closed my eyes.
I heard the sound of a set of keys, then the door being unlocked.
He slowly opened it and walked in.
I heard his footsteps approach me and stop in front of me.
“Honey.” He whispered as a lump formed in my throat and tears rolled on my cheeks.
“I told you that I don’t want to see or look at you Cole. Do you want me to have a miscarriage?. Will that be enough to convince you that you are making my life way hellish than it already is right now?” I asked in a cracked voice.
I instantly heard footsteps moving from where I was and the next thing was the door shut closed.
I opened my eyes and looked around the empty room.
He was nowhere to be seen and that came as a relief.
“I’m sorry Emily. I don’t want you to hurt in any way or anything to happen to our baby. I won’t approach you or bother you at all until you feel like you can be able to look at me.” He said in my head.
I took in a deep breath and released it as I sobbed loudly.
I was going to leave him and never see him ever again.
All I needed to do was to convince Dwayne to take me out in town. I was going to threaten him about telling Cobi what he had done to Beca. I knew how everyone feared Cole and Cobi. He was going to give in easily, then I was going to grab the money that Cole openly left in the first drawer of the bed stand at the corner.
Once I would in town, I was going to find a way to run away from Dwayne and get on a bus or taxi to take me to the airport.
I was going to succeed with my plan no matter what.