Nan Lin shook her head, “You ask me, but how do I know?”
“Nan Lin, do you think that because I can’t remember anything, so you think you can make up some stories to deceive me?”
“Nan Su, I don’t have to do this. I don’t want to ask you for any benefit. Why did I lie to you?”
“Yeah, I asked you to think about the thing of looking for a doctor to treat Leon Hua’s eyes. What did you say that to me?” I asked her back.
“I I just want to tell you, the person who asked the doctor to see Leon was you, not me. You asked me to find the doctor, where can I find him?” Nan Lin said loudly.
I was shocked again.
This logic sounded right. If I was the person who was taking care of Leon at that time, I would have done all those things. It was right Nan Lin didn’t know it. Leon also said that Nan Lin didn’t seem to know a lot of things happened at that time, so he suspected that Nan Lin was fake.
But if it was really the doctor I found, then I got amnesia now, how can I think of it.
“Nan Su, you have to believe me, what I said is true.” Nan Lin said again.
This should be the first time someone really called me like this. I was not used to it. I felt like calling someone else. But the name sounded familiar.
“Then I ask you, before I was married to Leon, he kept a lot of articles about Nan Lin, including photos. Why the people in the photos is you, how would you explain?” I stared at Nan Lin asked.
“After knowing that Leon was getting better, you are worried that Leon knew that the person who takes care of him was you, you not went to see him anymore. And later Leon got well and inquire about you everywhere, so I let someone give him my photos, and he thought I was the one who took care of him,” Nan Lin said.
“What did you do for? In order to let Leon to treat you as a benefactor and give you some money?”
“You can also think so.” Nan Lin’s face even showed a trace of loneliness.
I looked at her and suddenly understood something, “You like Leon?”
She did not deny it, but did not admit it.
“Okay, I have spoken to you almost all. Believe it or not, I said it, and I feel more comfortable. We used to be good friends, and you gave me a lot of help. You were a girl born into rich family, and I am just a poor student from a small place. Those city students in No. 4 high School bullied me. Only you were willing to be friends with me and even help me in life. One year I can’t afford tuition, and you paid the money for me. You are my best friend in my life. When I knew you were dead, I was sad for a long time, and my eyes were swollen.”
I couldn’t believe her about this, “If we are good friends, why would you pretend to be me?”
“You let me do this.” She spoke amazingly again.
I sneered, “You really think I get amnesia, so you can cheat me however you want? No matter what kind of story you make up, do I have to listen to you?”
“I didn’t mean it, and all I said was true. It was indeed you who made me pretend to be you. You worried that Leon would look for you everywhere, so you let me pretend to be you. But I didn’t dare to show up at that time, because I don’t know too much about the details of you getting along with Leon. many years later, I dared to try to pretend to be you. At that time I thought you were dead and my name has been changed to Nan Lin. I thought this matter has become an eternal secret, but I did not expect that you are still alive and have a son with Leon! While you don’t remember that you are Nan Su. You don’t know, when I first saw you, I was afraid and happy. What I was afraid was that you could remember the past things. I was happy that you are still alive. Nan Nan, I’m not as bad as you think. But I am really sorry for you, sorry for Leon.”
I took the milk tea that was almost cold and took a big drink in order to calm down.
But I found it was really difficult to calm down. The plot reversed too quickly, and I was really shocked.
“If you don’t believe it, you can investigate it. That’s the fact. I also asked why you hurt Leon, but you just cried and said you regretted. I didn’t really know why you did that. If you want to know the truth, I am afraid you have to wait for your memory to recover.”
I shook my head, “It’s too difficult, my memory, I’m afraid I can’t recover in my life. Anyway, thank you for telling me this.”
“You believe me? Don’t doubt that I lied to you?”
“I don’t know, but since you are willing to admit that you are fake Nan Lin, which means that you are sincere. Since you have changed your name, then you can continue to be Nan Lin, I will let Leon believe that you are the really Nan Lin.”
I said very clearly that I did not intend to mention this matter with Leon. Of course I didn’t want him to know that I made him go blind. And he can’t see again now, also because of the original influence, so all these things that Leon suffered were caused by me, and I was the murderer who hurt him.
How could I let him know this? Even if he can accept it, I can’t accept it myself. If he knew the truth and did not let me look after him, how should I do?
More importantly, although I was sure that I was Nan Su now, I had no memory at all. If he asked me why I hurt him, I can’t answer.
Since things had passed, then just maintained the version of the lie. Nan Lin saved him, Nan Lin took care of him, and it had nothing to do with me.
“Nan Nan, I think you can think of it. It just takes time. I am happy that you are still alive.” Nan Lin said.
“Then when you discovered that I was Nan Su, why didn’t you tell me?”
Nan Lin lowered her head, “That’s because I had no courage. I meticulously planned for so many years. I not took my defeat lying down because of your existence. You have no memory. For me, you are another person, not my friend. And you also exist in another identity, which makes it difficult for me to treat you as a good friend before. But now I know I am wrong. Nan Nan, human nature is selfish, I hope you can understanding.”
“Well, no matter whether I understand or not, it is the fact. I hope our conversation today not let other people know. I don’t want others to know about it. And you should always know not to mention the thing Leon go blind for anyone.”
“Don’t worry, I won’t let anyone know. I hope you can forgive the wrong things I did, I’m sorry.”
I waved my hand, “You’re right, human nature is selfish. Okay, I’m going to catch the train.”