“And I continued to stay away because I needed to make sure that Adrik is dead so you and our family could live. And stay safe. So you could fucking step outside the palace without looking over your shoulder. So our kids could go out and play without you losing sleep over it.”
“I’m so fucking sorry for caring so much.”
“I’m so fucking sorry for not being able to kill him and only being able to make a deal. But my brother’s life was on line and there was no other way to guarantee he wouldn’t come after my family. His heart at your feet would have been my last gift to you. It was never my motive to make you hate me.”
“I n-never hated you,” she gasped in between her sobs, “I’m s-sorry.”
“And I’m so fucking sorry for loving and trusting a woman like you. For giving my life for you. You have done nothing but string me along since the moment I came back with your hot and cold behaviour. One second you have a moment with me and then you insult me. I do something nice for you and you tell me you hate me. I take my fucking daughter out and you accuse me of trying to break this family.” I could feel the fire burning inside me. I could feel the fire behind eyes.
“I didn’t mean it,” she cried.
“Fuck you for breaking this family. Fuck you for breaking my heart. Fuck you.” I growled out. I could feel the fire burning inside me. I could feel the fire behind eyes.
She was crying and sobbing uncontrollably.
A part of me wanted to go to her and apologise and make sure she was okay and that made me mad all over again.
I was feeling so… heating… so… full of energy I felt like I could burst.
“I’m sorry.” She sobbed. “Please. I’m so sorry.”
“But now, Avalyn, I am going to actually make you hate me. I’m going to give you a reason- many reasons to hate me. You have always seen me as the loving, caring Nik. You have always seen the best of me.”
“Don’t do it.” She whispered, her throat dry.
“Now, I’m going to show you the worst of me. I’ll show you how bad I can be.”
“I’ll always love you.”
I scoffed at her words. How dare she fucking say that when she was just fucking another guy not even fifteen minutes ago?
“I will make you regret it. I will make you regret ever showing me your face, I will make you regret me.” I hissed.
“I’m never going to accept your rejection. I’ll never break our bond.” She vowed, looking up at me.
“I’m going to fucking destroy you. It’s war, Avalyn. You versus me. And this isn’t just some fight. It’s the endgame.” I declared.
“And you.” I made him the focus of my fiery glare. “I give you exactly thirty seconds to get the fuck of out of my home and thirty minutes to get the fuck out of my Kingdom. If you are spotted on my land, you will be shot dead on sight.”
‘Capture Avalyn’s mate the second he is out of the palace and bring him to the dungeons.’ I ordered Natalia.
‘Yes, Alpha.’ I could almost hear her smirk.
Fear slithered in his eyes and he was out of the room in a second.
“Nikolai.” Avalyn had managed to drag herself near me and she clutched my thigh, begging me.
I gritted my teeth and looked at her being all pathetic. I grabbed her arm and pushed her off me
Without casting her a second glance, I turned around and walked out.
My bedroom was the first place I went to. I locked the door behind me and took a seat on the bed.
The entire room held her scent. I hate it.
I fucking hate it.
That’s when the hurt came crashing down. It hurt. My stomach hurt. My heart hurt. My body hurt. My soul hurt.
I was in so much pain.
I couldn’t control myself and I slid off the bed, falling on my knees and collapsed on the ground.
So much pain.
I felt like my entire being was being torn in half.
My head hurt. I could feel her being torn apart from my conscience as we become separate individuals.
I punched the floor a couple of times. Fuck. Why did it hurt so much?
Even shifting in my wolf didn’t hurt this much. Taking a fucking bullet to my heart didn’t hurt this much.
“Argghh.” A scream left my mouth.
I felt hot.
My entire body felt hot.
My wolf let out a loud, pain filled howl that left my mouth too.
It was hurting him more that it was hurting me.
But it needed to be done.
“Nikolai!” Dimitri burst open the door and my head snapped up. He stood at the threshold.
That’s when I realised that the entire room was on fire. Every single square inch of it.
The fire reflected in his wild green eyes as he took in everything.
I couldn’t even gather enough strength to compose myself. I didn’t even have enough strength to get off the floor and stand up.
“Aw hell no.” He shook his head. “What have you done, brother?” He stood at the threshold as he looked at me with disappointed eyes.
My eyes slid shut.
Today, I’ll suffer.
I’ll endure.
I’ll cry.
Tomorrow will be difficult.
Tomorrow, I’ll embrace my pain.
I’ll pick up the pieces and build myself up again.
I’ll be back tomorrow.