Avalyn
My eyes fluttered open and I failed to recognise the room I was in. When I couldn’t move my neck freely, I realised that I had a collar with a weird looking green stone hanging off it around my neck.
My eyes slid shut.
Where am I ?
Is this a nightmare? I haven’t had one in a very long time. Almost since we killed Emilio.
The last thing I remember was helping that old lady carry those groceries to her home and then it was all… blank.
I clutched my head. Nikolai.
I need to go to Nik. I need to see him.
This can’t be real. I’ll wake up now.
The doors opened and my eyes snapped up.
Thick arms that had black tattoos on them. My eyes slid up and I recognised the villainous face with silver eyes. Some woman might think he is handsome with those sharp eyes, shapely eyebrows, straight nose and thin but firm lips. But I had seen the ugliness that lurked beneath.
Why am I seeing him?
“Your mate, Nikolai is dead.” He announced.
My heart stopped and a smirk formed on his face.
What is he talking about?
“Don’t you remember? I kidnapped you.” His smirk widened into a dark smile. “And then I told Nikolai to come here. I made a hurricane in he ocean that destroyed his little boat and sucked him in. He died by drowning in the ocean.”
It can’t be true.
He can’t die. Can he?
I would have felt it.
But I haven’t felt him through the bond in a long time now. It was very much possible that I didn’t feel him now.
Is this really real?
I pinched my self. It’s real.
Oh Goddess. Oh Nikolai.
“No.” My throat clogged up and my eyes blurred with tears. I can’t loose Nik, I just can’t. But what if I did? My heart spasmed and my lungs burned. Tears started flowing down my cheeks and uncontrollable sobs wracked through my body. My tongue felt thick, I couldn’t speak.
My heart ached.
I pressed my hand against my heart, wanting to ease the pain a little.
It didn’t help.
“Stop crying.” He ordered and I suddenly just… stopped crying. Just like that. Easily.
My eyes widened.
His smile widened. “It works.” He looked at the ring on his middle finger. It had the same green stone the collar on my neck did. Did that mean… could he really control me like that?
No…
He wouldn’t…
No one could be this cruel…
I shifted back in the bed but my back his the pillows.
“Nikolai is not dead.” I tried to say firmly but my voice shook, betraying me. “He will come save me and then kill you. It will be best if you release me, I’ll make sure you stay alive.”
A harsh laugh left his lips that sent a chill down my spine. “I like the fire, sweetheart. But I’m going to like extinguishing it more.”
I bit my lip.
“Those lips would look so much better wrapped around my cock.” He rubbed himself over his leather pants and my mouth twisted into a scowl.
“Never!” I hissed.
“We’ll see.” He replied.
There was a knock on the door before it opened. The man whispered something in Xillian’s ears that made his lips split into a dark smile.
“Crawl to me.” He ordered and my eyes widened. Against my wishes, my body lowered itself on the cold floor and I fell on my fours.
My eyes lowered in mortification. What am I doing? Why am I doing this? Hasn’t Nikolai taught me better? Hadn’t I learned to do better now?
I don’t want to kneel at any man’s feet except Nik. And even that was by my choice. No one else’s. Not even Nik himself’s.
Please be alive, Mi Amor.
I crawled across the room and kneeled next to his feet, tears continuously slipping down my cheeks.
“We have a guest. Follow me.” He ordered again and started walking outside. Again, against my will, I followed.
I tried hard to stop myself and use my powers. But nothing helped. I hadn’t felt this… humiliated… this degraded in my entire life.
What will Nik say?
He helped me stand on my legs. Literally. He taught me to be independent. He taught me how to be strong. He made me realise my powers and taught me how to use them. He has been the source of light in my life. And I have glowed into the Queen I am under his guidance.
What will he say when he sees me like this?
He will be ashamed of me.
I bit my lip to stop myself from sobbing out loud.
Will he even take me back?
What if Xillian touches me? What if he fucks me?
Will Nik not like me anymore?
Our mate bond isn’t as strong anymore either. What if he doesn’t like me?
What if he thinks I’m impure now?
What if he doesn’t want me?
What if he really is dead?
Why do I always have to helpless when I really need to be strong?
Oh goodness. I need my saviour. I need my saviour to save me again.